It's nearly impossible for me to upload pictures through da phone to blogger because it might take a thousand years and 101% of my brain capacity. Lol.

Anyway, can start count down to mid course already. Gonna have lots of fun after mce, so mug hard lovers!

Today was cool. Pretty slack, yea.
Got back Chinese compo btw. Pian but still pass. Heh.

Had econs fa today I wrote until hands wanna break . Not fast enough D:

Gonna train writing speed. Zzzz. MUAHAHA



After fa went civics with Tim, had Mac ^^ then hit the books. Nah didn't finish a chapt at all. But fill in some blanks.

Btw kai, tj and pt there too. Check out facebook new pictures lol. That's all I'm going to say.
Miss clique! Hang out soon pretty people!

Last thing to mention, ting sent us a super cute message. So nice of her. Babe thanks love ya too!

Happy childrens' day
The day I turned really stupid _|_



Ya I'm okay now. So it's fine to talk about it now. If you really wanna know, you can ask. I would answer everything i can, my love. :)


Tmr will be spending the day with (only iPhone n iPod viewable lol)

I don't know what I'm feeling right now. Hahahaa. Not happy not sad. Not angry not calm. It's a mixture of everything. I guess it's pretty normal at this time. Mid course is next week? Yes it's next week.

School. Nothing much. Laughed like a crazy woman while watching some super junior variety show with fishball. lool. Had phototaking session (CCA) today.

Finished at least one more chapter. Gonna start another later. D:
I just wasted 3 hours trying to add words into my eom (I KNOW I SUPER LATE LE BUT I JUST REALISED NOT ENOUGH WORDS) and edit wr. Mad shit so many sources to edit. ZZZZZZ I give up.


Anyway, I wore the lens I haven't touch in a while. The brown one and I think I'm going to get more brown lens! Super nice. I should stop opening new lens cause I've 3 pairs now and I only wear them during weekends, provided I'm going out. Toss them to the bin after 8 wears? Super wasted! And there's this particular expensive lens $38 fyi! and it's super uncomfortable. ZZ only wore twice. How?


Hahaaa that is crap.




I'm going to eat some fruits (idk what it is called but it's super sweet) I'm blessed cause everyday got different fruits. Btw, power nap will be my new love ^w^ Feel so refresh!


Guess what I used for the picture below? Not photoshop! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D  more awesome thing. 


to you: You're my favourite ^w^

I'm sleeping early, not because I'm hungry.
I'm too late to study. Zzzzzz

No strawberries boooo. Only prunes. Not bad not bad.
Supper is waiting, my favorite xin Zhou mee fen and rojak. I will surely eat if I continue to study. Iffff.

Damn my stomach is grumbling like no tomorrow again. Z
I better sleep. Also I'm too lazy to pull myself up from my comfy orange bed, move to kitchen, pick up a fork and stuff fats into my mouth.
Typing is killing me, I'm wish I was a stone so all I do is lay there and do nothing. Wooo sounds fun.

I think I'm on the verge of breaking down because I typed nonsense.
N

Btw nice skin? I hope the books would inspire me to mug.
Photo taking session tmr. /:


Crapstick. Fishball. Lol it's funny but I don't have the energy to laugh.
Nights zzzzz

Hello, I Am Going To Laugh Right At Your Face

Dear-J,
Been quite busy today. Not tired nowadays (y)
Lovable lovable :D Had western during break, fried bee hoon during lunch and fried mee after school. fattening. Actually I care more about the money. D: My saving plan ~~ :(

Stayed back after school to do revision. Hmm at least I managed to finish my differentiation. ^w^ That's a goooooood start. Gonna touch the super hard physics (according to mooncake and co.) later on. Gar life sucks. Chinese sucks too. Boringggg.


Hmmmm gonna edit wr again. I guess that is A LOT of work. Ya but still have to do it no matter what ZZ.

Mooncake, or to be exact flattened mooncake with diao face (-.-''' <--- something like that if you can't visualise), cow, ape and fishball with brown gravy are love! ^w^



That's life. That's life. 
It's pretty depressing, I know I know. Hahaha!


Call me a mugger! Provided I start mugging. MOTIVATIONS, anyone willing to share some with me?
Or a portion of their brain.

Accidentally deleted away ytd's post. Wellllll.

Ate 3 apples ytd (y) and 1 today. Now I'm chewing on peach. and prawn cracker later. :D

Definition test today. I totally forgotten first law of thermodynamics. -_- but anyhow crap also correct. ^w^
finished wr (y)x2


idk what to post all i know is tmr im staying back in sch/mac to study with peeps. wish me luck.

im declared a fruit junkie now, at least healthy snacks. Hit NTUC for strawberries tmr. :D

I blogged, but posted at the wrong one. I will copy over tmr lol.

Actually I have no intention of blogging again but the definitions are driving me crazy. Twitter can't help cause it's only 140 words per post. I need to vent everything out haha!

89 definitions, and what I only remembered 10?
I guess I will make them into a rap or what and vomit everything out tmr.

The problem is, I am never a good rapper to begin with. Maybe I will compose a song, maybe. Fml 12:34am now :(

Rise and shine! It's 12:44pm already fml. Am going to yan's mummy house later.(:(:

No lunch today guess I will settle with a big bowl of Maggie mee.
Xoxo, will be tweeting later on ya

Random picture updates (thanks yan for it!)


Ps, man with extremely good temper are hawt okay ^w^Y

I'm super happy hahaaaa! Except the fact that I hasn't start revision. Sinful tv :(
I got some pictures to post, hmmm.
But still deciding whether or not to put it here. Lol. Yaaaaaayaaaaaa.

Hmm www.twitter.com/jielinnnx33 I'm starting to attach piccccz ^^


Updated 2:09am. I've been thinking, wouldn't one feel remorseful for taking someone else's things? And it's so obvious. My locking up plan failed cause everytime when I'm in a rush I just pull out the stuff from the stuff-to-the-max luggage bag. It's so full and messy, I can't zip it.
Zero guilt?

Just a thought, I'm lying, something triggered it. Well laaaalaaa.



Hmmmm thank god I've tyx here with me.
She's loved okay. She accompanied my lonely phone and lonely phone's owner for 2 hours. Endless talk. So I've been talking to her while eating the poor fish (nobody eat leh) and watching nanny McPhee AND DESPERATELY TRYING TO MULTI-TASK. Wanted to revise but the ram of my brain is too small cannot run if not will hang.

Going to say sayonara to tablet and m1-5.:(
Anyway bye-bye cyberspace. I have to wait until I free to go down and get a com once tablet is gone.

Soooooooo I forgot to set alarm the night before as I fell asleep while watching hai pai. See how tired I am nowadays?

But I woke up in time, thanks to an awesome dream. I vaguely remember it but I swear it's the best dream ever. It's something like running away from the zombie world(ya I know) to a small town, idk but it's very exciting.

So back to reality. 

Thank god I managed to wake up in time, bathed and prepared, went to touch up my hair. :)) aunty trimmed away some ends and changed my partings, still in the mist of getting use to it eh. Still deciding whether to keep it this way yea.

After that boonlay. 2nd jab :( I realized the dosage decreased. From 3 jabs to 1.5 jab. It was by the nurse. And it hurts more this time. She used another vein. I think I will bruise later on :(

Initially my blood was too thick, too red. But after 3 weeks my blood is too dilute n iron deficient o.o it don't really make sense yea. 

I'm too lazy for medications (must take a lot! Vit c, k , iron, zinc and whats the last one again? Forget it) that will surely burn a big hole in my pocket. so I must change my diet? And it's better too? Btw if I'm really that jialat right I think I am most probably dead by now. Just DEFICIENT, so I guess it's not THAT serious, right? Haaaha!

Anyway Im a complete direction idiot. I almost almost took the wrong bus and go all the way to amk. 

Speaking of transport, something really scary happened today on the train. 

The man sitting beside me on the train vomited. He literally spilt out beer (luckily not digested food or semi-digested food) like merlion. I was totally taken aback. I didn't tio anything, strangely and luckily. The man opposite got it instead. Scary much. 

Moving on.
after the jab went to have Mac breakfast x3 
And yishun for tuition.

Thanks Joel mummy for making her way down if not I'm as good as taking a shower with my clothes on. Damn the weather ya. 

Made my way home, took some stuff and went to tuition, again. 

Tmr I need to study if not I will confirm retain. I will love love love my life after promos, so many activities! Minus away op and Chinese a lvl. Good luck! Shall finish my hai pai today (y)

*this post was a drafted one*

Hi yo. I'm blogging without computer now, you get what I mean.

Anyways, today was totally retarded. I can't wake up despite falling asleep while watching hai pai.

And totally forgot the change in lesson D: luckily I never pack my bag hahaa.

Phoneless today. I think I should totally don't bring my phone to school. Troublesome max.

Chem lesson was awesome, as usual. Played some fb sketching game, it's fun okay
:)

By the way ms goh gave us hk marshmallows ^w^
Awww it's so nice of her.

Rained like mad when school ended-___-
Took bus for a few consecutive days.

Went to yishun, tuition.
Home after that > food > jewel beach (love this game now)

I think I'm going to fall asleep again, very soon.

Ransoms:
1. Treatment wasn't so good = waste money
2. I'm going shopping tmr :)
3. Meeting dr Wang for follow-up
4. Either I'm awfully stressed or menses is coming. I'm having break-outs :(:(:(
5. 10pm show is good
6. No com cause no charger!!

With yan now..

WTF I realized I lost 100bucks, 2 movie tickets voucher, 1 lipgloss n 50john little voucher _|_
fuckers -.-

Luckily my metro voucher still here

Some honey candies and a sweet boy like you




Don't let the situation you're in affect you.
(L) x infinity playlist. Shall delete all those chinese songs.

Hi yo(: i am going to fail my gp compre this time I swear :(

Nvm what's past is past.

After school stayed back, did some maths and watched videos +listen to songs. Now I got a pretty awesome library of songs^w^.

Took bus with the girls to cwp, parted. Shopped a little in watsons and popular while waiting for sisters.

Went to watch resident evil!:D:D
I jumped a few times. Sound effects super.

Lend Mei my ij shirt haha.

Anyway the movie was pretty good. I believe there's another one coming up? Yeap.

Now I want to wath devil, if it's nice.
I'm damn broke:(

Didn't meet the cutest people because ya, canceled.
Always fail attempt. Haizxzz.

All of you gonna make it up okokkkk!
Ok I just finished dinner,

Shall do hwk and then talk to my darling(:


point number 1, I miss you a lot, :D I'm blessed.
Talk about that next time. Hi my sweetheart-ing

School, tired.
Met ky passed him stuff.

Came home, slept. 6-10.30, woke up in between for dinner -____-

Fml slept too much. Must start to mug if not I will confirm retain lor.

Ok I shall do thurs hwk as well cause tmr going for movie? Then meeting the cutest people on earth at night x3

Gagaaaa I'm going to exercise too. Yaa I hope, healthy lifestyle! (y)

你相信有爱情吗？我不信。

I got it wrong, and I would never want to go back in anytime soon.

I am home. I am tired. I guess I will blog now cause I've to finish a lot of work later T_T
Hmm let's see. I can't really remember what happen today. Just I screwed up my chem fa cause I didn't know 2/2=1? Hahaa. Lol.-_-

Got back Chinese compo and miraculously I still get a pretty good grade for my first attempt on qns 4.
Coughed a lot today too and I'm scared I would pass the virus to people. I must get well soon.

Anyway wen went home cause she's sick. Evil flu.

Last thing, I fell asleep in class. Pretty cool (y)

And three cheers to me cause I drank a lot of water today.
^^

Ok it's 7 nao i shall sleep till 9.30 then wake up for dinner and homework. 10 for channel u and 11.30 for hi mysweetheart (y)
Sleep by 1 today

Boy: happy 18th girl.
Girl: thanks (:
Boy: what wish would you make this time round? Friends? Love? School?
Girl: I wish I could spend every 18 with you, till the very last one
boy: x3

Every time at such times, I wonder, should I really blog? I guess this site doesn't get a lot of attention, change URL?

Haizxz that's what I usually do, keep changing, looking for a better choice until there's something special enough about that thing or person for me to hold on.


Blah, it's crap, I cnt sleep. Seriously this time i might really cough my lungs out. I just coughed my dinner out. In simpler words, I coughed and vomited. Crazy, but true.
Terrible virus _|_

All I do is rest, eat, watch tv and cough.

Maybe I should try to sleep.
Well before that, 3 things.
1. Lee min ho is cute
2. Hi my sweetheart is nice
3. I just did a crazy thing
Oh gt 1 more 4. Wanna watch movie!

I'm deciding on whether...

Hi world(:
Yesterday was awesome awesome. 1st time to USS with 12A.:D
Hmmm I wna do a proper post but all my stuff n tablet is with wen. So let me just verbally bring you all through before subbing in the pictures/videos?

So basically, everyone was so excited. Rushed the last experiment. Most of the peeps left to prepared even before physics practical was over, I left after cause I'm slow lol.

Made my way down to wen's house, bathed and prepared. Ran to cwp bought my lens cause I forgot to bring mine :(
Waited for most pple, trained to harborfront.
Took mono thingy to sentosa! First time taking it! Usually I went there by car, and that's really really long ago.

Waited for pple to settle some stuff and only managed to go in by 7+. We were separated initially.

I was with Laobin, xinyi (his gf! Chio ^^) and wen. Went to mummy. Then to canopy thingy and met up with the rest 12 of them.

The canopy? Hmm not fun 53s only.
Then wanted to queue up for the rapid thingy aka the water ride but it's down for maintenance. Some stayed to wait while I went with the rest to shrek 4d. The sneezing is damn gross. Lol.

After which went for mummy again. Posed for picture and we bought it! The whole cart is only pple! But my face is super LOL.

Went for new York thingy. The stimulated special effects is awesome(:
The rest went off at around 11. Something happened at the entrance and we were denied entry -_-
but solved, we ran back for food. Went around and most stalls were closed. Ite went for last ride, the dragon one, so short lor. But had a great shout.

Vinus and altro bought us some sweet flour thing. That's our dinner lol. I used dan voucher(left mine at web house) and got some drinks and stuff.

Cab home after that.

Wanna to have supper but was really lazy to cook.
So I had a stick of sweetened flour and fried rice at 12 yesterday. My meals is so irregular.-___- it's really bad for my body I know, but I'm so busy. Lost 2kg due to this hectic week /:

Ok anyway, back to yesterday. Wen called me at around 2am cause she can't remove her lens? Lol hahaa. But luckily it's out.

Slept.

Today woke up, cancelled appointment. I bet my system is more screwed up then before.
Wait till I get better before going to the doc again.

Hmm and I'm down with flu&cough&sorethroat. Ultimately sick.
No voice so cancelled tuition.
Hai. Rested at home, watched 5h Indian show lol.

Wanted to go out but I don't have the keys.


I'm going to sleep now, hopefully get better later.
It's really saddening to be sick and alone at home :(
And all I had was cold Maggie mee, tuna spread and a whole mooncake :(:(:(


Needs a hug now.

Been watching some show for 5 hours straight.
And coughing my lungs out.
The man is good, but he's a bastard as well. -_-
hahaa hard to explain.

有人说，你爱一个人多久，你就会用多久忘记他。。
Happy 4th.

USS was fun. Blog about it tmr. :)


I knew u will come

Hi yo(: I found some grammar errors in the previous post /:
Anyways, today was okay, except the fact that I was reprimanded in class by CPA because I read the qns wrongly and talking to laobin about formulae and most probably the terrible vector fa. Lol.

Forget it, I think I'm at wrong too. But it's good to have Laobin to cheer me up? At least a little. Did qns 4 for Chinese compo just now. Well, I think I totally suck at it, need more practice I guess.

Mood was moody today. My throat is killing me. That's why I give the blur face cause even breathing is painful.

Went home around 6, took really long to do compo lol. Talked to jy. Hmmm.

On a lighter note, napped a little while, okay 2 hours and went to meet darl cut fringe. Too freaking long and it's irritating. Did treatment and zombie flick :)
Haiz can homework do itself? I need to sleep before my body breaks down.

Having cough and nose is like a tap. Not cool at all.
I don't want to fall sick cause tmr will be a fun day! Universal studios here I come.

^^shall watch a little hi my sweetheart before bed. Homework tmr ba:)

Dear-J,
I will do a quick post. Last night was pretty terrible. Mood swingsss.
So I posted a lot of stuff, but deleted it before falling asleep.
I barely closed my eyes last night. I went to bed at 4.30am after stoning/reflecting for the past hour.
I guess crying is a good way to vent all those frustrations.
Luckily I pretty normal today.

Past is past.


School. I'm super awake today. Lessons were fun. Got back chinese compo. Hmm a not bad attempt for yi lun wen? According to laobin haha! Although it is like a piece of shit beside JiaChen's.
Also received AQ. yay pass. Considered how lousy my english/common sense/logic is AND this is pretty much the first timed assignment, good good. :D

It's really good to sit beside laobin cause he taught me a lot. And he's really informed! I wish I was half as informed as him.

After school went golfing. GJ *pats myself at the back*
Finally manage to do pretty good shots (but the credit goes to the new set of rules)
Hit 38par. Minus a handicap of 12, so I score 26? hahaaa! So I guess I suck with near shots.

Then pw meeting > food > CCA.
Damn guilty cause I always go for like what, few minutes? Rushed home searched for yog tickets. But it's not with me :( Don't know how leh.


Slept > went down to meet pecky. > Snacks > facebook. New game! omg at this time. I MUST STOP ALL THIS CRAP.

It's 1.13am now, I wanna sleep already if not I will die tomorrow.


Damn I haven't finish my econs case study. I will do it tmr ba.

--------------------------------------------------------
plan for tmr, clear wr, eom, interview, go library do homework? D:
And it kinda reminds me, I haven't reply Dan yet hahaa.

Last thing! (Y) finally 1 million ++ score for zombie flick. fun really~


karma.

But his world does, and that the only thing that mattered. 

Hi yo (: had a too long nap just now. D: tired like a bitch.
I will do a proper update IF I'm not lazy to move my tablet out and charge it. It has been lying there for 1 day whining low battery.

Zombie flick on iPhone is nice! Addicted already. Lol.
Ok I shall go through the mountain of notes to find my compre and do my aq, hate that thing! :( but no choice. Guess you will see me around later? I have to on the com cause I'm baking cake, lol ^^

 Outline your last words from now on.



Dear-J,

School. Extremely early for it (Y) Pretty manageable just confused about hybridization. I think I returned everything to the lecturer after the study break. D:
Chinese got back mock test. First time scoring this grade (Y) x2. I shall put in 100% for all work from now on. The satisfaction is pretty heart-warming? Like your efforts paid off.
I guess my greatest achievement during that test is staying awake. Been REALLY hard to stay awake for 3 hours, twisting and turning my brain for answers. You have to know I'm a potato. My brain is literally not functioning most of the time and I'm hell slow. :(


Okay forget back the discussion on my brain D: PE. Golf. Again. Sun was burning me. Now I know how it feels like being a chicken baking in the oven.
And did lousily. 53 par? To get B for PE elective you've to get 38? Yaaaa. LOL. On a brighter side, I might hit a handicap of 24 and the next practice on wed would be so much easier. No PE on thurs :D Hmmm and archery as elective? Yes-no?

After school slacked in class before physics subject day. Finally no more mugging for FAs. Didn't bring revision package though so I'm basically trying to look like I'm paying attention. No book = minimum attention.

After all those blahblah stuff met Dan and went to library, studied for an hour or so. Mad tired so decided to go back home. And I'm hungry too.

Let's work hard today and finish all the stuff, moviez tmr! ^w^ I hope.

And Mooncake festival is next week, I want eat swensen's mooncake and snowskin mooncake. Never had them before. I only tried the most common ones. Maybe the more 'unique' ones are the agar agar kind? idk what shit but it's something like that. And maybe pandan? (I can't stop displaying my suaku-ness)

By the way, do you know where to buy those diary with lock and key type? Those super lan use to pian xiao hai one. Cause I lost my keys to a very important lock and I presumed any similar type of key can be used?
(since the lock is pretty lousy)

And no, hair pins don't work, don't ask me to pick the lock again. IT.DON'T. WORK.


Kesha is officially loved!
let's stalk yue now :D

Before I tripped and fall again




Dear-J,
Went to expo today with RuiQi and Aunty. Had food in food fair before going to popular and after getting the stuff. So let me try to recall what we've eaten.
3 packs of taiwanese fried chicken, 2 bowls of mango ice, 1 pack of chicken rice balls with drumstick, 1 crabstick japanese pizza, takoyaki, 2 bowls of shark fin soup (but I didn't drank any cause I don't like.)

Went to get books and stuff in popular.
Aunty got many stuff for me too and it makes me guilty D:
took train to bedok then 168 back.
went to popular to get more books before we parted.

Then spammed J's mailbox when I'm home cause stupid him don't want to pick up my call. zbj!

aiyaaaaaaaaaa I shall go eat now. D: then finish up the last editing of wr. 
Cross my fingers,

Random updates!

Watched The Clique, finally!
I like ahaha.
Personally I feel they are gorgeous.
Massie is rich aw and 24/7 camera ready. Claire is beautiful. Like Alicia. Admires Kristen's character.
It's interesting to watch it but seriously, I wouldn't want to experience that kind of system. It's hard to survive I guess I'll end up as a erm what's the word they used again? Forget it.

I guess I shall continue reading the series once I'm free. And cultivate some good reading habits :D
Now, what movie up next? ^^


update:
I forgot to add this in the previous post.
When I'm eighteen, I'm going for a photoshoot. Gonna take some good pictures to keep. Before I'm old. OwO

Also, I'm searching for 'the devil wears prada'. I wanna watch!
Hopefully I can find it? D:

Gonna burn some fats later. Yeap.
And if you haven't read about this tumblr - wolffangs.tumblr.com, you should.
One of the blogs I read daily.

The first step is facebook, the next step is blog.
I really appreciate people reading my blog cause I had spent time and effort to type everything down.
It's cool too, though it's a mundane routine. Especially when I look back at old posts and pictures, I can tell myself loudly, I grew up, been there done there.
once that happy, that sad, that troubled.

After all those chapters, you will see a new girl, stronger.

There are everything you can imagine.




Dear-J,
Yesterday was good.
So firstly woke up at 12:59pm. Good to sleep this much.
Had lunch, did some Maths then went off to Shaw tower?
To food fair. Ate 麻辣stuff, lime juice, chocolate, laksa, duck rice (not nice de).
Crave for mr bean ice-cream now :(:(

Then we walked from that place to marina to esplanade blah blah then floating stage.

After which walked through 'The Helix' and finally reached IR :D Long but worthwhile journey.
It's beautiful there!

Sat there till 7 cause dad want to see the lights on.
Camwhored blahblah.
After that left IR and went for steamboat/grill buffet.
Spread was okay but the must try is fry man tou, jiao zi (reminds of me china trip). Others are the usual steamboat stuff. For bbq there's mutton, pork and beef.
The meat runs out really fast. And the watermelons too.
Ate for approximately 2 hours and the bill came up to 80 for 4. Okay ba.

However I wouldn't promote this place cause I stomachache all the way from morning till now.
Yaa painful stuff.
Not very clean and hygienic I guess. Or maybe my food not well cooked?
Pros of that place is:
1. No need to queue. The queue for the one we wanted to eat is long like hell I promise. See how good their business is? Next time imma going back to that place to eat :D:D
2. Got a lot of eye candies. Okay fine not a lot. Just a table of Taiwanese and hmmm all look cute ^w^

Gonna go there after promos again for desserts. (Y) now.
I don't know, I feel that I've learned a lot from this trip. Singapore is so small yet there's so many place I've yet to discover. Very awesome.
I'm so glad, to be alive.

And yes I got inspired/motivated.
Seventeen might not be so good but, eighteen will be better.

Next year, when I'm eighteen, I've goals to meet.
1. I'm going to study hard and do my best for A levels. And sayonara JC life aka no life.
2. I'm going to work and save money, lots of it in preparation for University.
3. I'm going to get an awesome super good but hopefully not too bulky and heavy camera, tour around Singapore and do a portfolio. Not forgetting indulge in good food too.
4. Pick up a skill or two. Have a few in mind already but it can wait.
5. Get someone to share my joy with, and hopefully stick through the rest of my life.
6. Grow a pot of flowers. Haven't find anything I like though.
7. Book a room in MarinaBaySands!
8. Birthday party! Not in may sadly. 21dec? Hahaha.! But don't know who will come lur!

Ok enough of my crap, the only few I managed to upload :o phone died. The battery life is -______-
Pictures in random order and most of it are random shots.
(testing new app!)

Mushroooooms :D:D Doctor said I can't eat mushroom but I just had shit load of it. D: I'm going because of that though.

Time for pw and homework.
I'm lazy to go for appointment next Sat! Should I go?


WO PUI PUI T____T But I can't stop eating leh! Hungry now.
Even the first thing tyx said was "wtf why you fei le?" YAYAAAA I need the fats to keep me warm.
I'm polar bear. ~~~






GAWR I'm just random cause I'm hungry. D:

I read back my posts and yea I find myself contradicting. That's me, I supposed.
Note, I spotted serious spelling errors that totally altered the whole meaning of the sentence. ROFL. paiseh ar.

Case closed. At least I said all I wanted. Happy.
It was hard initially. I took half an hour before I 'opened' my golden mouth lol.
I'm sorry for all the negative things running through my mind *yes i'm guilty because I've sucha thought*
You're the best I could ever ask for, really.

Though you don't shower me with gifts nor time, don't accompany me to study nor cook, I'm happy to have you. Maybe I can't get back my stuff anymore, it doesn't matter.
All I asked for is your trust.

You know why it's so hard for me to mention this? Because I'm scared I will disrupt the harmony in the family.
Iloveyou mummy. ^w^


To her,
no matter what, we are related after all. I'm fine now. That's what family are for. Forgive.

This Might Be All I Can Give
The very powerful eight letters words.

Haiyoooooooo the uncles and aunties! I told them meet today 8am in the end 8:40 also cannot see shadow. lol.
nan de I wake up so early.
Last night my internet down. I sulked there for so long until I fell asleep. lol cause my sist downloading some ass shit movies. Lag me like crazy.

I'm running off to tts very soon. Sian so far.
Then after that if there is time meet the girls for dental check-up (anyway my gums stop bleeding already so I guess the medicine really works..? yap ^w^)

 *sidetrack: xb online le :D*

Alright I guess the thing to look forward to today is frisbee in the evening? I hope I can make it.
I need to exercise too anyway. I'm getting lumpy. (like a meatball)

and treatment yesterday was good :) I like how my hair is nowwww :D

YES I FINALLY MUSTERED ALL MY COURAGE AND TEXT HER. (Y) but she didn't reply? I wonder if she saw it. HAIZXZZXZX.


Hahaaa I find myself so funny. If you know who is she you would probably kill me cause it's sooooo lame. It's like "YES I FINALLY PEE KIND OF LAMENESS" Blah keep it under wraps for now. :p


Hmmm, Though you dui bu qi wo I wouldn't take it to heart. (yaaaa I'm still whining cause it's so hard to conclude this case!) God please tell me what to do?
As long as you return what you took? I'll be more than happy. Not everything just the most recent stuff.
yeap I wouldn't be angry anymore. Life wouldn't be so hard anymore.

How can you not feel guilty at all? If I were you, I don't even dare to face the one I did wrong. I know the feeling. Cause I've been in your shoes before, long long time ago though. The feeling sucks. The guilt is still here after soooooo long. Though the other party forgive me now,(I hope!) I still feel I've let him down. So bad. It's sooooo bad. It's a vicious cycle that I can never free myself from. 
And for that moment for foolishness I've stained my life forever.  

 

And the ironic thing is, I don't dare to face you cause I'm scared it would strain our relationship? wtf is wrong with me? -___- I cherish that bond heaven gave us, fyi.
I hate my family seriously.

today is a special day.
It would be better if someone is here. *Hint hint*
And I literally mean someone. How have you been recently? good? I do miss you.
You're the one beside the 'windows' button (unless you're a mac user -_____-)


But before that you have to show me one thousand and one reasons.




Dear-J,
photos not uploading! :(
Nvmind I will do the post with words first and hopefully it will load later on.

Walked to school this morning. idk what the hell is wrong with mum today. I'm supposed to be the one that is angry lor. She don't want to send me to school wth.
Nvm -___-

After that, pw consultation. Discuss discuss. Then went cwp changed. And RP.
Troublesome because of the rain! :(
Studied in RP for 3 hours? Yeap. Brushed up EoM and finished Maths. (still got 1 exercise jiayou!)

GS came and find me for a while, like 1 minute. lol.
Went home when the rain died down.

Dear-J,
Let me do a proper summary for today. Posted so many random stuff here and there.
I woke up in time, but I didn't go back to school because there isn't pw consultation. So lazy to to go for physics lesson D: Anyway it's optional. Slept all the way to 1pm. ^w^
Wanted to go rp but failed cause girlf was not free and I'm lazy laaa. Best reason.

So stayed at home, ate carrot cake for lunch and snacked while watching carved aka slit-mouthed woman. This was a show I wanted to watch and I think it's sm who told me about this?

Pretty cool but sad ending.


Here's the trailer. The movie is found on youtube you can watch if you want.

:D


Then after that slacked, did a little maths.
Have dinner and am hungry now.



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Sidetrack from daily happenings.
I know some people are asking me about some stuff so I just clarify everything here okay.
1. The pasta I had in pizzahut recently is char-grilled chicken in parchment? In the advertisement above (nuffnang). *Hint hint* click in to take a look okay. :D

2. I went for a check-up + consultation. About skin cause I've some errmm I-also-don't-know-what-but-I-presumed-it's-not-serious thingy growing. Yea just need some treatment yap yap.
As why it's so expensive, hmm cause it's about erm 15 injections and consultations in total. And did a check up for digestive system. I guess my whole family have some sort of stomach problem. :( Sister was admitted to hospital for 3 days because of intestine problem, lol.

3. about all those angry/emotional posts, it something personal. As in, really personal. Even if I judge her, I don't want anyone to judge her too. Afterall, we're related. She did something bad to me, but who don't make mistake?
Now, I guess you sort of figure out it's who..? yap full stop.

4. I'm not attached. I just like to post some random stuff here and there :D Lol it makes me happy. I'm not sad either. I'm just random laa. D:


5. It's obvious I'm not interesting talking to you, so don't make me spell it out.

6. I didn't cut my back of my hair, plan to cut it like that in dec.For now I will just use a wig if i want that length. But looks pretty good right :D I like. ^^


7. No, my gums ain't getting any better. I taste blood every now and then :( I can't take the medicine cause it will crash with the thingy I injected yesterday. Going to the doctor again -_- to change pills.






Tmr consultation in the morning and hopefully can meet girlf to study nope she's not free so I must learn to be independent. :D and darling to talk for sure
(L) them.
Then thurs will be tts then tuition then perhaps celebration for sis birthday.
Why do everyone get a planned birthday except me? :( haizzzz let's not talk about it anymore.
Birthday sucks. -_-
Then friday perhaps a movie with i-don't-know-who/pw/tuition/study. Basically friday is a free day.
Sat will be www with girls and hopefully no menses by then!
Sun will be tuition day/prepare for the terrible term4.


Correct me if I'm wrong.
Homework for sept break;
1. Gp compre
2. chinese yan yu practice 1~3
3. maths finish Meclaurin's and revision package
4. physics can start revision package and current electricity (hand in next week) and do dc circuit?
5. chem ERM totally forgotten. do organic chemistry tutorial i guess. got extra practice?
6. econs case study 1 and 2 and revision package
7. pw garrrr
8. I guess no more? please tell me no more.

Scanned through fb messages. I guess the most common reply I got is "why nvr reply" lol

I hate hate hate hate hate hate hate those guys that go around adding girls and asking them to be friends WHEN they have a freaking girlfriend. It's about mutual respect.
I know, as long as you're single you still have a choice.. But I don't care. I have my own principles too mind you

So now not local/too old/too young/attached I will not add.
Damn those guys that do that.


And those pple that take me as substitute, f you too.
I'm not, sweet talks don't work for me, whining down work for me. It just makes me feel you're a pathetic dog. Sincerity comes from within.

GDYL.


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Just a random thought.

Hi, didn't go back for physics lesson.D:


Now I know the truth, what do you want me to do exactly?
It's okay since this isn't the first time. But thanks for your dishonesty. I understand how the world becomes nowadays. There isn't always a positive intention behind every move. 
I had stopped finding excuses for you. The trust is gone, what left is unexpressed emotions. 
But I'll not leave it lying like this. When you first did that you knew how much it would sour our relationship, you knew how much it will hurt me but you still did it anyway. So don't blame me. You can't, you don't deserve to. 

Tell me now, who can I really trust when someone did something like that to you?
Perhaps if I wrote the details you would think, CHEY but then again, if you were in my shoes, how would you feel? Horrible. So be glad if I told you the whole story because I only told those that care and I care.


Thanks to people that showed concern. You know who you are. C:


Updated playlist. Got 2 songs, same name but I only like the male version. Hahaha if you're lucky you will hear it :D Anyway, take a look at because of you - ne-yo. I really don't like the mv -____-
Cause ne-yo cheated on his girlfriend. And the whole point is, the other girl is ugly. His girlfriend so hot. LOL it don't make sense.

Anyway, should start to do homework now since going tts on thurs. Not much time. wed for pw.
And shall watch dramas and homework at the same time :D
Hope I can multi-task. LEEMINHO IS PRETTY CUTE (First time saying x:)

Sweetest Drug, You Could Easily Take Me Away

I am a little prepared to wait for love to cross my path



050910;
Dear-J!
Very tired that day so didn't blog. Prepared and went out to meet peeps. Waited for slowpok wen hahaah! Train to cityhall. Second time there! Watched 'Fried Rice Paradise'
Okay laaa not that bad. Got a spice pack as door gift lool.

After that some people left and the rest of us went to PizzaHut. Had a little dinner there. I had the pasta in creamy chicken sauce wrapped inside the paper. Forgot the name but mine only reached me after a good 45minutes? or even more.

Went to suntec. Hahaha! First time to comex show. D: I know I suaku. Walked around. Iphone clothes very cheap leh but I don't like the color.

Btw weiloke gave me his white casing. :D:D:D
(L)

Some pictures taken that day.


Okay I got fat. :(:(:(:(:(
Jian fei from now.


Went home, watched Avatar with fam! Stupid disc jammed like nobody's business.


060910;
woke up, prepared. Went school, damn shag. Not late. Wrote compo, it's crap. Did paper. Same old crap.
(I can't do paper 2 laaa idk why)
After that collected chinese homework, went home.
Bathed, food. Went to tuition.

After tuition trained to boonlay. Took bus.
And I offically announce googlemaps is my new boyfriend. :D
I totally lost my way there. -____- luckily got this awesome thing on Earth.
Save my cab fares.

Need data charges ma? I on throughout the journey to find that place D:
I'm so glad I've an iphone (although idk how to use, i only have 1 song, i scratched my screen)

I installed all the direction thingy - eg googlemaps, streetdictionary, transport, mrt map and labelled them "direction idiot" LOL! it comes in good use :D


Anyway, went to the docs. Pretty scary at first but she's awesome. I'm so going back.
But it's kinda ex. Total damage was 600 :( INJECTIONS but not painful.
Only can see my blood flow into the tube then the doc pushed it back into my vein, lol.

I got pimple outbreak :(

And must have healthier and more regular meals (my stomach is weak she said)

Bus back to boonlay and took 178. Big regrets.
WTH only reach woodlands after 2hours? Jam.
And the freaking bus is damnnnnnnn cold!




Changed.
yapaaa im going to smack that mosq!

Let the tears take out all the agony in you and let the laughter ignite your contagious joy


Dear-J,
Yesterday went for pw in da morning. 8am.....! I was early! Waited for half an hour for the uncles and aunties. >w< RP for PW. Der left first then followed by Aisy and LaoBin. I went to have lunch with Jiamin (saw her there ^^) and her pw group mates. lol. The Jap food there is good and cheap. :)

Went off after food and bus-ed to yishun. Walked one big round from on side of the gate to the other. Ohh there's something I wanted to post for... 3 months at least. The plot of land beside the condo is sold T__T
My dream house is supposed to build on that piece of land de... :c


After tuition rushed back home, prepared and went off to M'sia. Birthday celebration. The trip to 5th Aunt's house is like half an hour. GAWR.
Talked, took pictures, watched tv, ate lok lok, bbq stuff etc etc. But I didn't get to eat the cake wth? Stayed and talked etc till 1am. Reached Singapore, 2am. Bathed and sleep (mentioned it in previous post already)

Today didn't go for pw meeting. Now doing online meeting with them. Must finish WRWRWRWRWR draft. lol.

Hi hi I'm not dead yet. Finally reached home and bathed. It's 2.36am nao. Power sleep now and wake up in a few hours time for pw :(

Blog about yesterday later on if I manage to find the time. :/

Or should I don't sleep?


Manz I was actually very upset by something, but that thing will be posted in another place, ^^ it's 1. Upon request then I invite 2. Hack my account (yaaa jk although my password is totally stupid and I think a 3 yo can probably guess uh.)

Btw I've 10 blogs, 1 tumblr, 1 lj and 1 myspace. 10 blogs.. How many do u know of? Hahaaa :) kinda cool uh? But all those are retarded so it's not really necessary to know too :x just follow me on dear-jielin !


Yes I love you too. I wish I can stay so cheerful forever,
Emo bug go away. (fine all these are crap, I can't think properly nao cause it's going to be 3am and I've only 4 hours left to sleep and also I drank a little just now.

Don't feel like going for pw. I'm a human! Need rest too!

HAHAAA I TOLD YOU NO BODY WOULD BELIEVE ME.
I SHOULDN'T HAVE SAID CAUSE I WOULDN'T GET ANY EMPATHY, AT ALL. -.-
but idk why i feel so sad when they don't believe.

I'm Not Being Paranoid, I'm Very Sure This Time Round
I don't know how to get over it. I'm loss for words. What should I do?




Wen's favorite quote "Trust is like mirror, you can never mend it once it's broken"
I really really really really checked and confirmed.
*hurt T_T*


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Let's forget the unhappiness for the time being, I will settle it by today! BY TODAY.

Today went school at 7am (no, I'm not in early bird program!) Went there early for ionic FA. lool. Skipped GP cause there's fire drill. retarded. Time tight and forgot formula D: Maths lecture was okay. Rushed to canteen for food after that. Number 1 hungry woman.
Econs lecture, I don't get why my pencil case has to drop every econs lecture hahahaa.
PW, SUCKS. Econs tutorial. Early dismissal. Went for pw consultation, SUCKS. Anything PW-ISH = SUCKS. But still have to do. Physics tutorial yak with lao bin.

Ohh I scolded yc and dan otw to libraria because they keep smacking my tablet. I guess this was the first time I got so mad. Yaaa not totally their fault *CAUSE OF THAT SI REN -.-* They very cute, come together apologise. ^w^ Hahhaaa I not mad lur! yc even texted me because of that.
I'm sorry to you guys too okay? PS :(


After school talked with mr ong about PW (NOW YOU SEE WHY I HATE PW SO MUCH?). Rushed home and.... packed my stuff.

*Disclaimer, some pictures don't provide 100% truth, I'm pretty tidy, idk what happened to my table when I got home* AHEM

Anyway, I found really interesting stuff.





And a box of neoprints. Awww memories.
I wanna take neoprints with dearests! x3

PIP (packing in progress...)

Remember this?!! Loke loke can be so sweet at times. Ermm 3 years ago though.