In front of her, her future
She saw one path separating into the other.
The choice don't vary, it's between the first or the second.
She's left with now, or never.

With each passing second, every step is taken.
With who at the end, that will be another question.

This is what you get when I can't sleep. To be more specific, I don't want to.
 Followed 1 pretty sad tumblr. So this is why.
Anyhow, they are pretty meaningful.

I like this a lot.

Yea. The few posts are all.... mixed-feelings-kinda-posts.
Weird but that's how I feel. Happy. Sad. Shall call it Hapad (LOL -_-)
Okay it's hitting 4am now. Gonna hit the sack and wake up at 6am for some shows before planning my revision.

Title pretty explained it all.

Today, 6 bad things happened to me.
Actually, I know something bad is going to happen la. Just that it was a little too much to take.


#1. Had a bad dream. Well, considered...? My dream was happy, blissful, perfect but the moment you pluck open your eyes and see 6:52am on the clock, you know number 1, it's all a dream -.- and number 2, I'm almost late for school.

#2. I did not study for econs. There is supposing a mirco test today but it is postpone to tomorrow.

#3. Slim chance to UK. Haizz. So I went to splurge on some things I've been wanting to get.

#4. My napfa is silver. I don't know what's wrong with the school system, seriously. 1 moment: you cannot take your mock run results another moment: you can choose your best set eg. actual run's timing and mock test 5 stations (That's what I chose la) but ite they took the whole mock test one and I ended up with a silver. I can't hide the disappointment. Seriously, my mood instantly dampened as though I fell into an endless pit... or something near that. It's like something you worked hard for slipped by.... from your hands. Right from your hands. If I don't care I wouldn't have ran like hell already.... So much for choosing the best results out of two. -_____-. Mock=26points=Silver. Actual=25points=Gold. Dumb or dumb? Okayz they should do something about it.

#5. I pulled out my nail (by a little) during PE.
Very hard to explain but here's a.... sketch? 


It's wasn't that painful until nearing the end of PE lesson. I painstakingly passed/catch the ball okay.
After rinsing it the pain factor magnified.

Wtf actually I cried because of it la. wthwthwth.
Because I go pull my nail up a little, see the wound (as described above, if you can understand), and started to feel guilty/pity myself/whatever. So down to the point I just cried. Like -____- only.

Actually quite okay one but the moment they asked hahahaa I can't control. You know the feeling? You know when people actually care you cry even louder? The ironic thing is if no one cares you will feel super depressed. Life.
Or me? :(


#6. I forgot.

Went to grab some random stuff after that. (Y) hk file.
Finally got it. Chose for xxx hours in CC.


Ohh I feel happy again. Mood swing much.  Proven. 10 more days to period. I think.

Heyhey do you think I should change my url to it-is-still-her.......?
I'll probably get banished to the borders of the Earth if I do. 
Btw. I still love my friends, a lot! :D (ok super random)

Just got back home. Have to go out in a while to meet the peepos as well as love.


Back home, finallyy. Had a short while of L4D2 and omg. I'm dying. Headache. Want to vomit already.


Wemt out to meet them for a little while, shopped around cwp. Got food to reward myself. :D
Ham and cheese Jap pizza + cheesy hotdog. Wth they ain't as nice as before already.

Went to visit love to tell her the good news hahaaa. Got some stuff from her, chatted before heading home. I think I'm going to vomit if I continue to stare at my screen. So bye.


L4D2 later with peeps? That will probably kill me. I suck.





Post of the day:
Well. I want to pen down this.... weird feeling. Fresh from the oven brain.


Got back pw results today.


I don't know how to describe how I'm feeling now.

Let me just start with something for my group.


Dear IJ021, 

xiaobin,aisyah and derek ^w^

From your very lousy pw leader.

There are people who deserved A too.
Well, that is why I'm pretty emotional today. I can't believe it.
I don't think I'm up to the standard that's why I'm so upset.
(Okay maybe not VERY upset, just down).

I actually cried when I saw my results. It was... I don't know.

Extremely happy at first but the moment I know some of the people who deserved their A didn't get it, my mood changed.



I'm down. Like, you can't really be happy when people around you ain't happy.






They didn't show it, but I can sense the disappointment. 
Why? Because I've been there, done that.