Meeting them is by chance; keeping them is by choice ♥











Heheeeee went to chalet yesterday to celebrate my sister's 21st. Fill in events that day next time. Wanna blog about MMAPIML (my most awesome people in my life)

So glad most can make it.
Hope it wasn't too boring for you. They are like the first few friends I introduced to my family. C:



I hope I hope we can have endless things to talk about, I hope we have time to stick together and just blabber nonsense, I hope we'd really meet out more often after A's! Okay or not?!



Might have said it many times but please tolerate once more: I love you guys! HEHEEEE ♥


Of course, many many many other friends!!
Everyone is so important to me. ^w^









Random notes:
1. Phone died, no Internet, feel like living in a cave.
2. Drinking game again after the celebration ended. With real wine and stuff.
3. Collapsed at 3am. Skipped sun-rise adventure (luckily because they went to the wrong side lol)
4. Slept on a wooden board. Dammmmn hard my back is breaking.
5. Bowling today. Quite fun. Think I'm quite good except I throw the ball instead of rolling them lol.
6. Time to load my mei le jia you. ♥
7. And start mugging soon........ :(
8. Sudden urge to play pool.
9. Wanna meet the girls for mj leh :(
10. A levels faster over!
11. Read my sist's friend name as Alien instead of Allen LOLl.
12. I'm hungry looool.
13. Writing my list of to-dos after Alevels! Can't wait!
14. Gonna run :D (for food and teeeveeeee)
15. I'm a happy girl.

Went to school for college day today. Crappy. Don't know how I spent the time but I did.

Grabbed a pudding and headed home to prepare.
Finally a chance to dress up a little.
Went to cwp to meet up with the rest and caught:


















DAMN PAINFUL. 
DAMN GROSS RIGHT GOT LIKE WATERY PUS.


Both left and right legs.
Today is a damn suay day. Wear shoes, feet got blisters, face got rashes(which took me real long to conceal), eyes become bloodshot and strike monthly thingy.


BUTBUTBUT, I'm not going to give up on heels. Wait till my feet recover, I'm going to file the back of my shoes, stick silicon and learn to walk again. Platform heels are real hard.

I hope one day I can walk like Rosie Huntington (the woman that acted in Transformers).
Seriously amazed by how she walks. Nice.


Remember my last period was one of the days in UK. You mean, I'm back from UK for about a month already?



T____T miss that place. So magnificent. 


Had about an hour of L4D with the peepos. :>

I never felt so much in a day before. Yesterday somebody, not sure whether it is an accident or not, jumped. I'm like searching for words to use to write this post. It is hard. Hard to express what I want to say. A mixture of emotions. No, turmoil, a state of blank.


She is not someone I know but I'm super lost and sad at that moment. Well, she fell right next to my house and I have a clear view of everything.


Life, so fragile. 




I did not witness the whole process of... death. I'm thankful I didn't. Couldn't sleep last night and mind was all messed up just by looking at the aftermath. I would certainly go bonkers if I did.
Thank god, literally.


So this was what happened. I napped like 3 times yesterday. So mad tired and I'm aching so badly because of that irritating monthly cycle. Imagine I didn't sleep, I would have heard the bangs, the screams, the commotions. Me being myself, I would definitely check it out.

And that will be the worst choice of my life.
I know, I always watch people killing one another, eating each other blahblahblah on tv but when it comes to real life situations, I don't think I'm fit to handle it.




Thank you all the aches and sores.



Anyhow, I only realised this whole thing when I'm keeping the laundry at 7pm. Was shocked when I see a policeman downstairs with a tent.

Called sm but she didn't pick up. Her phone >.<. I'm so lost, seriously lost. Called mum and only managed to calm down when sister reached home.


A lot of people are.
But I ain't. 



I know, who don't die? In fact, people die every single day for every other reason. But I never thought it'd be so near to me. So near. It's like watching a movie in 3d. Yet, it is not something you can brush off after the whole 'show' ended.




I cannot imagine what I'd do if someone close passed away. I can't. Plain crazy.



I'm not afraid or anything because I've nothing to do with this whole thing.
I'm just affected. Traumatised. Shocked. And perhaps, depressed as well.
I can't help to wonder how her family is going to handle this. Pray everything will be better though words can't change the fact forever.


I hate to say this but this is part and parcel of life.
Now I only hope my family, friends and love ones stay with me, till death do us apart.



From now on, I would want to create more happy memories, for myself and for others. Because in life, you will never know what happen next.


You too,  okay?

Updated again.
Can't stand the make up mode in my camera (make me look so ghastly and washed out).
Warmed my picture hehhheee.


 SEE HOW IMPORTANT COLOURS ARE?
I think by changing the colour contrast etc will make a picture nice.
Added a layer of black for lashes and coloured my purple lips (London is cold~~) to cherry.

Btw, the tools I used to warm up the picture are photo filter and levels. No need 'blusher'. Just play around with the two!



Enjoy!
Back to snacking on tiger biscuit and doing Maths. FMLLLLLL.







Gah I can't sleep. 4am. Spent the past hour digesting my maggie mee (refused to sleep right after food), watching bubzbeauty's videos and photoshopping.

I've tuition the first thing in the morning. I'm doubting my ability to wake up tomorrow. So why not don't sleep?
Like possible.
Will probably drop dead later after this post.


Anyhow, back to what I was doing.
Photoshop hur. Skills will get rusty, just like my brain. Desperately trying to use my brain nowadays loool.
I did the craziest editing. I always do crazy things in the middle of the night. #lonelygirlforever.

Obviously all the makeup are put on via photoshop (mad love)
The only thing authentic is the background? And oh, my eyes.
Wait, I've contacts on. EOS 14.8mm grey lens. Love it but really dry.
And another pair I got was labelled 325 degrees but the len is 0 degrees. WHO CAN GET MORE SUAY THAN ME? WHO?

Should change my eye colour too. I know. Tried but it turned out pretty scary.
GAH I SIDE TRACK A LOT PS.


Main point is, check out the hair colour!
I almost chosen this shade (which look like shit imo). Luckily I chose dark oak, which gave me almost dark-brown look.
Well, a lot of people still insist it is black fml.

I THINK I'M PRETTY GOOD IN DOING THIS HEHEEE. Wanted to photoshop my hair colour for the longest time. Didn't know how and was too lazy to do the cropping blahblah.


It is pretty rough, you can see tint of black here and there halaaaa. Nvm it's a job well done for a first-timer!

I edited like 2 times. Uploaded the first one on facebook.
Did second editing because I found something super weird.
MY BROWS.
If you see the first, you will agree with me; brown hair, black brows = big no-no.
So I went to manually painstakingly colour my eyebrows brown. Loool.


I don't think I'm made for brown hair. I think I look like some indecent girl/ahlian?
Hello jet black. Me love you.

Super fun. Maybe I should try on others. Sooooon.
Maybe I should study this?

SO FUN I'M GOING TO PHOTOSHOP ALL MAI PICTURES AGAIN. LOOOL.
Very little photos nowadays because if I take 100 I only can use 10 -____- All others are blur, poor lighting, fat, ugly, idkhowtodescribeface, screwed, plain turn-off.

WTF THE CAT JUST SCREAMED REAL LOUD. I'M SCARED I WANNA GO BACK TO BED NAO. :(

I know. I've so many blog posts to clear. Time a factor, mood is another.
I'm losing the vibe to blog.
(because more people ain't posting regularly?) Is it like a trend of something?




Anyhow, let me clear the easy posts first. The long/require more typing will come soon. Maybe I can draft them on the plane? Can't really know right now.



My birthday! Err yea went for UK briefing.
Headed home after that.

Wonderful, yes? loool.



Can't remember. School. Econs mirco revision after that. Glad I remember most of the things. Yes I love market failure.


Physics SPA. Everything is okay. I hope. Checked a billion times before submitting. That's the good thing about physics. You don't have to rush like a crazy woman and results are super nice.
Photo-taking session. Class and with the girls. (Y)


Headed for Einstein programme after school. Guys were real late because they are stuck in the rain. Hur loool.
I don't know what got us but had a mini class gathering at Cathay with... 11/12 people? Loool. Johnny Depp?





Sat at like the front few rows and neck was literally breaking. Shivering and freezing as well. Luckily sw got me a jacket if not I'll be joining the penguins in Antarctica. Heck. I don't know I'm super poor in Geog.

Wait I'm poor in everything. T___T

Anyhow, back to the show. Well..... I'm more interested in the pirest and the mermaid!
Think they are super hot!!






Tuition for hours before heading to get my hair done. Ahhhh finally snapped off inches of spilt ends.
Am pretty sad because I cut like 2.5inches of hair.HUUUUUUUUUU *insert Appy's moaning voice*


I look different (I think). Not the usual cut.... :D
Paid like 80 to give my hair a new colour heeeeaaa. Well, Dark Oak or something like that. Basically it is dark brown. Really like how it turns out but when I looked at it again it's like black? I swear I see dark brown in the salon! Must be the damn lights wthhhhh.
Wasted my money, 4 hours sitting there and brought home black hair that is dry.
Anyhow, the stylist said that the brighter the colour, the more damaging it will be....
So think thrice before getting a new colour?


*okay maybe there is a little. Just went to check under the lights.*

BTW WATCHED COMING SOON AND TONS OF CRAYON SHINCHAN AND HEADED OUT FOR SUPPER LAST NIGHT. LIFE IS COMPLETE.

Dad's birthday. Going out for dinner but haven't decide where. Tuition first before meeting family. Tons of work undone. Have not officially packed yet because my luggage is having a sun-tan.
Well, in 1 word, I'm screwed. (okay maybe 2)

Title pretty explained it all.

Today, 6 bad things happened to me.
Actually, I know something bad is going to happen la. Just that it was a little too much to take.


#1. Had a bad dream. Well, considered...? My dream was happy, blissful, perfect but the moment you pluck open your eyes and see 6:52am on the clock, you know number 1, it's all a dream -.- and number 2, I'm almost late for school.

#2. I did not study for econs. There is supposing a mirco test today but it is postpone to tomorrow.

#3. Slim chance to UK. Haizz. So I went to splurge on some things I've been wanting to get.

#4. My napfa is silver. I don't know what's wrong with the school system, seriously. 1 moment: you cannot take your mock run results another moment: you can choose your best set eg. actual run's timing and mock test 5 stations (That's what I chose la) but ite they took the whole mock test one and I ended up with a silver. I can't hide the disappointment. Seriously, my mood instantly dampened as though I fell into an endless pit... or something near that. It's like something you worked hard for slipped by.... from your hands. Right from your hands. If I don't care I wouldn't have ran like hell already.... So much for choosing the best results out of two. -_____-. Mock=26points=Silver. Actual=25points=Gold. Dumb or dumb? Okayz they should do something about it.

#5. I pulled out my nail (by a little) during PE.
Very hard to explain but here's a.... sketch? 


It's wasn't that painful until nearing the end of PE lesson. I painstakingly passed/catch the ball okay.
After rinsing it the pain factor magnified.

Wtf actually I cried because of it la. wthwthwth.
Because I go pull my nail up a little, see the wound (as described above, if you can understand), and started to feel guilty/pity myself/whatever. So down to the point I just cried. Like -____- only.

Actually quite okay one but the moment they asked hahahaa I can't control. You know the feeling? You know when people actually care you cry even louder? The ironic thing is if no one cares you will feel super depressed. Life.
Or me? :(


#6. I forgot.

Went to grab some random stuff after that. (Y) hk file.
Finally got it. Chose for xxx hours in CC.


Ohh I feel happy again. Mood swing much.  Proven. 10 more days to period. I think.

Heyhey do you think I should change my url to it-is-still-her.......?
I'll probably get banished to the borders of the Earth if I do. 
Btw. I still love my friends, a lot! :D (ok super random)

Just got back home. Have to go out in a while to meet the peepos as well as love.


Back home, finallyy. Had a short while of L4D2 and omg. I'm dying. Headache. Want to vomit already.


Wemt out to meet them for a little while, shopped around cwp. Got food to reward myself. :D
Ham and cheese Jap pizza + cheesy hotdog. Wth they ain't as nice as before already.

Went to visit love to tell her the good news hahaaa. Got some stuff from her, chatted before heading home. I think I'm going to vomit if I continue to stare at my screen. So bye.


L4D2 later with peeps? That will probably kill me. I suck.





Post of the day:
Well. I want to pen down this.... weird feeling. Fresh from the oven brain.


Got back pw results today.


I don't know how to describe how I'm feeling now.

Let me just start with something for my group.


Dear IJ021, 

xiaobin,aisyah and derek ^w^

From your very lousy pw leader.

There are people who deserved A too.
Well, that is why I'm pretty emotional today. I can't believe it.
I don't think I'm up to the standard that's why I'm so upset.
(Okay maybe not VERY upset, just down).

I actually cried when I saw my results. It was... I don't know.

Extremely happy at first but the moment I know some of the people who deserved their A didn't get it, my mood changed.



I'm down. Like, you can't really be happy when people around you ain't happy.






They didn't show it, but I can sense the disappointment. 
Why? Because I've been there, done that.

Ahhhh... This post is finally up. Well well... outdated post....


5March2011:
Highlight #1: Got back A level results. Almost died, literally. Am so freaking scared I can't get what I want because there are 6 demoralising factors. BUT I GOT IT HAHAHAAAAAA. Am really happy. :D


1 A level sub down. Now I'm worried for PW. Hmmm I hope for a B. or higher. BBBBBBBBBBBB.


OR HIGHERRRRRRRRRRR.


Lol enough of this.
Highlight #2: Went for our first event coverage. HA. Joke.

Why ain't they excited or what? Didn't have a lot of awesome pictures. Well.


Highlight #3: Left early and went to Singapore Flyer!

Today is considered a fruitful day. Before I start, I would talk about 2 random things.


Been trying to braid a decent fishtail for the past few days! How the hell do they manage to make it sooooo perfect?!!



Fishtail braids are like my favourite hairstyle now. The sad thing is I can never get a decent one on my head. Well well...

Anything with braids (except for those China kungfu-alike style = my style.) rocks!


The second thing will be at the end.





Let's start!









Can I skipped school events? Really bad because it's just lessons after lessons. Nothing weird/funny/surprising.
Maybe the only interesting thing is I ate chicken burger, chicken cutlet and a drink today.



Headed to cwp after school. One of the earliest possible day to leave school.
I like.

Chased after the buddies but ite they wanted to head back to the hostel. No exploration of cwp and Mr Bean ice-cream :(


Went to popular to stock up some things. Can't find my board, can't find my pencil case (btw my rabbit one broke hahahhaa), can't find my pink pen. T___T CWP POPULAR SUCKS.


Parted with them and went to tpy.

Got many things done there:

1. Trim my brows.
Didn't go for the usual method. This time it's literally cutting and shaving. It doesn't hurt a bit. Yeaaa it's too thin I know. I'm growing them back and sticking to korean brows for good. Luckily I have bangs to cover them (I'm growing them out as well)

2. Cut my hair
Trimmed my ridiculously shaped bangs (though I'm growing them back to fringe hmm), snapped a good few inches (jk it's a good few cm). Really tempt to cut to bob or slightly over shoulder. A little while more. Maybe on my 18th birthday? A brand new start. Layered them too. (Too many girls are having the same style and I'm sick of it. No layer, V-shaped long, black hair) Not very obvious cause I only got the ends layered.


3. Massage
This is the first time in my life going to a saloon (or whatever you call it) for a massage. Damn shoulders they're as stiff as wood. Really comfy! When she used the lavender essential oil I feel dizzy. As in, drugged! Super calming! I never felt that way before in my entire life.
I guess essential oil really works. 

The ambiance is really good and my therapist is super friendly. I don't even feel awkward when I've to change into a weird piece of cloth.
Hmm.

1.5hours there. Really relaxing. It's good to pamper myself a little once in a while.
It's..... really ex so I wonder when I would go back for another self-discovery session again. LOOL.
Even if I sign the package the difference wouldn't be significant.
That sum of moneh is enough to fund my uk trip.



Wanted to queue for koi but as usual, insane.
When I'm done with everything, yq and sw were done with their self-discovery swim. Lol.

 Econs FA tomorrow.
I.NEED.TO.START.STUDYING.






























Growing fringe back to above/bangs?
Some people are like fuck. No wonder. t(-.-t)