Soon, My Armour Will Break ♥

updated:
Hello blog,
I'm back from school + shopping + tuition.
GPP is totally messed up. So many things to edit, so little time :(
I've to summit the "better" draft by tmr night, so this means I've to finish GPP by today. No need sleep already lol!)
I revolve around: 1. tuition 2. school 3. PW 4. friends 5. sleep, eat, house 6. walking around CWP for a billion times.

HA.


Met Cow just now lool! Initially wanted to teach him how to wear contact lens and we ended up shopping. LOL. Wasted like 3 hours and got lame things, :/
But he's a nice person, sent me home after that. And here I am.



"Don't judge a book by it's cover" so freaking true. I can't believe you're such a person.
._.



And, JieLin gonna be so silly once again, but it's okay.
Life is about taking risks in search of happiness.
The outcome don't matters anymore, the important thing is the process.
Losing and gaining happiness, so used to it already.
Another needle prick wouldn't hurt much, (L)







Going back to school for consultation today, LOL
Then tuition.
Bad night sleep. Crazy thoughts. Stupid me. ._.

I might go crazier tmr, idk. Ain't gonna let those thoughts get me down. I hope.
I dont have the energy to do anything anymore.

I don't wanna talk to you, cause I don't wanna burden you with words I might say.
I don't wanna look at you, cause I don't want you to see those misses and tears in my eyes.
I don't wanna be a fool, waiting for you to offline and sleep before I do, staring at your picture and let tears well up in my eyes. Open a chat on MSN but never write anything. Saving all texts I wna send you in drafts and deleting them again.

Sorry daddy I shouldn't shout at you.
You meant well I know.
你夹鱼给我，叫我小心鱼骨，我很感动。
I know you love me and I don't wanna hurt anyone that loves me.
I'll be a good girl, I will be strong.
I'll be happy, I'll study hard.



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Hellllooo blog ;D
Jie Lin is going out, again.
Have to do GPP sketch-up on the way to tuition.
I'm bad at Art lool!

Ok, so long, blog when I'm home. (:
and lunch was sooooo awful that I couldn't get anymore -.-


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I'm back from tuition and an assessment for rq. The teacher is good, handsome and nice haha! Too bad he don't teach JC.
Went to have Mc ice-cream and I think, it's the first time..? or so I finished everything on my own. Full like mad.
So much of jian fei.
Gonna rush GPP now, 3 more hours before meeting!
:D
Blog again? probably tonight if I find something interesting enough :D

I would speak no more, let the music take you away.

Please Don't Judge

I had enough.
People stop lecturing me over god-knows-what. Stop using time to measure everything.
Stop telling me it's not this, it's not that. You think you're so holy you're older you know everything -.- F I don't think you know much at all! Stop trying to give me godly advices and repeating the word young. So what if I'm young? Does it mean I have had nothing for the past.. 17 years? -.- I was nice but you started all your crap. so hell bye please don't talk to me anymore -.-!!
AND WTH SPY? WTH LIES? how the hell you measure the depth of pain? _|_
Ultra pissed off. Conclusion, avoid such person at all cost.
(Am pointing to one irritating bastard only)



Met peeps and prepared for apple's advance birthday celebration.
Bought 17 apples to replace cake haha!
Went to mj, blackjack and rabbit.
Nice place to slack.
Lost all my coins in blackjack won in mj. but didn't collect the money it's okay :D
Went to look at courses and then had kfc for dinner.
(i'm getting REAL fat, ok)

Then, arcade again :D
Improved in DDR haha! though still noob. Played terminator salvation and the gun is hell heavy. Not to forget house of dead. LLLLLOVEEEEE that game :D
Photohunt again too! stress game haha!


Camwhore at usual place :D and crap again. Love those girls, yq,sw,apple.
Sm we need you soon :D
Pictures, asap.D:

Updated:D
Woke up early early today! In case they say I late again!
Gonna prepare soon, soon. :/
Been having dreams, a lot of different kinds.
So realistic that I can't differentiate whether one event is real or fake lools!
Okay enough of craps, off to facebook (really addictive haha!)
And hope to see sm online later on!! :D
Should I ask her to get something for me there? LOL the problem is I don't know what to get + moneyless.



Up tmr in apple's present D:

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Hey friend, :D
You might not be going through the exact same thing,
But just to let you know, I know how it feels like.
The old saying, it's not the end if everything's still not okay.
Or something along that line.

I know how hard it is.
No matter how painful, how empty, how lonely or how terrible, hold on.
And remember, you still got me to confide to. :3
Although I can't help you in anything, I can fly down to find you if you need someone there to cry on, (since you live so near me, quite near)
You're a great girl.
I'll help you if I can :D


Anything, gimme a text or call, I'll reply, wait for me if I'm late :x

Will Hold The Next For A Lifetime ♥


Hello blog. :D
Today was pretty packed, and fun.
Woke up late (not surprising), prepared and went to Republic Poly.
Did GPP and I can say it's almost done.
Then slacked there waiting for others to finish up.
Practically, all 12A is present. LOOLS.

Had maggie for lunch.


After that went to cwp with some peeps first, then slacked around cwp.
Lots of things, changed.


When I'm tired and went home, they are ready to go. lols!
So put back, go toilet and went out again.



C and Apple went off first.
Went to shopped for stuff with YueQi and SeowWen.
Dinner then had mango ice kachang (:


And last stop was arcade.
Super bad in DDR laughs! won sw in car racing by like 1 metre of something.
We also played house of dead and photo hunt.
I super slow, wth.
Spent nearly an hour to 2 there. (:


And zizhao came to find yueqi just now! hahax1000000


Meeting peeps tmr :D
Movie, anyone?

update:
wtf can't stop laughing at those pictures on fb. those tags and comment, epic much.
gonna get a camera very soon and snap unglam pict of sw. never let her have camera again lool!

TAURUS FOR THE WIN! :D


For some reason or another, Taurus won the overall champion :D lovves!
Finally summertest is over over over.
but I think I did badly, real bad.
It's okay. I still have another chance. Will cherish the last chance.


Practically did nothing during sports day. Drank so many cups of milo. Went to play catching and slacked with 12A peeps :D
LOOLS they're supposed to do pw but we ended up talking and taking photos ! :x



Made jy cried today, can't push the blame. A bit guilty :/
WELL.


and,
Tomorrow gonna go for pw -.-
Shopping cancelled alrdy lor! stupid must summit by sun and go back to school on mon ._.



It's still okay, meeting up 12A peeps on sat :D:D:D Looking forward to mj in apple's house. :D
And date on sun LOVELOVE :D








Drag to 6.15 :D
Ultra sweet. Mannnnzzzzzz.


Can't wait to hear your voice again, :D

I really cherish you

For the courage you gave me.
For the happiness you brought.
For making me laugh when I'm about to cry.
For coming back even if I pushed you away.
For telling me everything is okay.
For holding me back when I'm about to do something regretful.


It wasn't easy for you too. Hearing me crap and stuff, telling you how much my life sucks.
It wasn't easy for me too. You knew that.
You chose to help me, still.


Never scared, never give up, that's what I admire you the most.
Hold on to these, possible influence me.:D

And I wanna make you happy too.

Jielin SAYS < 3


Hellllloooooo.
Second good game to physics. -.-''
Last paper tmr!
:D CHEERRRRRS
I'll take the holiday to put everything in place.




Went to have KFC; Jielin SAYS K (jielin, seow wen, apple, yue qi, shi mei and kristale)
Cute hor. :D


Then went to shop around.
Bought 10 nail polish from thefaceshop! Lols girls.
Switch to shopping mode even before exams are over. :x



Talked to awesome people.
Hey a girl clique isn't that bad, you get shopping khakis, (but I think sm will be sooooo bored)
And planned a lot of things with them, to buy list and to do list.
We'll complete them.
:/



(L) awesome.
Not forgetting my dearests too, must meet up soon.


It's freaking, I repeat, (I hardly repeat things) HOT!
The heat is insane.
Gonna hit the bed now, doubt I can get any economics terms into my puny brain under what, 40 degree Celsius ._.




And I'm getting fatter :(
Flabby arms and short ugly legs o.o

Updated:
BIG -.-''
You don't even know me and you're telling me all this crap.
I'm blunt whatever, I don't like you, ya that's it.

You can't even speak proper English.
Stop pestering me
! am happy with my lovely weiloke :D


I agreed with the answer given.
"It's like rearing bees for honey, you'll get sting one day."
and it's just wasting your time.



Fine, I'll take that as my answer for now.
I hate dying a little inside whenever I saw you liked something in facebook.
Because it isn't about me.

解脱。


我会好好的，我会长大的。
我说我会，就会。


Gonna be so so busy during June! Massive GSS shopping spree. D:
I hope, I don't spend too much.
Going for lessons after PW meeting, Yup I've decided.


I'm gonna conquer physics now. Meeting J later on. (:




Here, would like to thank some people,
D for cheering me up and making me feel special
W for mental support
S for making me laugh
S,A,Y for lending me a shoulder to cry on and the time spent with me
A for listening
J for encouragement
P for listening to my how's and why's.
Z for talking to me through the night

“Math tells us three of the saddest love stories: Of
parallel lines, who were never meant to meet. Of tangent lines, who
were together once then parted forever. And of asymptotes, who could
only get closer and closer, but could never be together.”

Finally internet is working.
I know this hurts but my heart just refuses to budge.



So many people live their lives in regret. They obsess on what they should have done, could have done, and would not have done…if only. Dump the baggage of the past…you’ve carried it around long enough…and forgive yourself for what you didn’t know how to do yesterday. Failure is the fertilizer for growing a rich life. You might not like the smell of it, but it’s necessary. It’s only by making mistakes that we can sort out what we want to do tomorrow. Assess what you’ve learned, what you don’t want to repeat, and take the steps needed to move forward.

Wait For Me To Grow Up.


Good game for chemistry.
I never flunk something this bad before.
But, this, slapped me awake.
Nobody is waiting for you to move on.
Nobody is slowing down for you.


Nobody is to blame when you did something wrong.
I'll shoulder the responsibility. For this fail.
Life's full of regrets now, I wouldn't subject myself to another.




We have an aim, I have one too. No, maybe many many.
It's time for me to pick myself up, forgive and forget, and continue working for my goal.

2 years later, we promised..
I'll make it work this time round.
I wouldn't disappoint another person, I wouldn't hurt another soul.
:D




But before that, I've to stop hurting myself.
AS IN, MENTALLY.


So, this is the so-called mental struggle?
Haha!
But there's time for everything.



Though I don't really believe in fate, there's something people can't change.




It's good, having people around caring.
Cheering me up and hearing me repeat why and how for millions, maybe billions of times.
And never got tired of it.
That's what friends are for?
Giving me courage, pulling me up when I fall.
So many people.
Thanks, really.



Mum: It's part of growing up. Once you grown up, you'll understand.
Me: When would I grow up then? Is it when I don't feel hurt anymore?




Back to studying now.
(:


it's like, cutting through me.

看你要走，我却什么都说不出口。
因为，你听不到了。

Update:
I'm left with 2 more hours to mug. I hope I do.
Daniel is causing too much distraction. - keep fb-ing .lools!
I must must must complete revision by today . omg.
If not I ain't going to sleep already -.-



There's wouldn't be rainbow after the rain.
I wouldn't be affected by even the worst storms, I hope.
I wouldn't say FML because life's too short to whine continuously.
Just forget all the unhappiness, all the emptiness, all the tears, all the arguments, all the missing and love.
And learn to become someone new.
After all, in this world, you can change no one but yourself.






No Love Last Forever,



Yesterday internet gone gaga.
Went for tuition, then library with 12A :D
Hmm, wasn't really a successful studying trip cause crap a lot with people.




In the library now and it's so packed!
No space for turtles :(


Going for dinner later on so I've like a few more hours to study!







hey
Guess I'm still not ready, sorry,
I still miss you,
why do you have to go? But I'll stay strong.

Fuck everybody.
Everything is pissing me now,

Stupid, I don't know whether I wrote the right one for GP.
Chinese compo was okay but the passage is kns. -.-


Angry with myself.

Sian 2, have to attend lessons tmr.
Sian 3, have to be in the library on sat alone till late! I hope people come study tgt! (as in people I know la)
Sian 4, I'm not prepared for summertest.
Sian 5, It's freaking, I repeat, freaking HOT! sweat like a cow.



I shall eat, bath then on air-con to study.
I really too dependent on M1-5 (can't imagine next year)



Perhaps, study on friday with turtles? If they want. haha!
Home is too comfy = sleep~


And lastly, I got distinction for MT oral. Though I think it suck pretty bad.
Really have to start beefing up things alrdy.
And stupid got low marks for compo -.-


Hope I get a nice nice topic to write for tmr :D
And GP teachers, please spare me from grammar LOL

i miss you,

我很辛苦，谁可晓得？
我很难过，但是我不能哭。
只能一直问自己，为什么。。
只能每天向神祈祷，只能远远望着你的背影。


Hello! It's Project Work, again.
Summertest is tomorrow! I've to stop thinking about things.
-.-



Been updating M-MK more, as in more words.
(go see okay :D)
Ok, shall do GPP now. (:





Sometimes I wondered how you are doing,
So I asked my friends to ask you for me
And I don't act too concerned.
Even if they tell me there's someone else in your clear eyes,
As long as you're keeping your radiant smile.
It hurts but I'll be okay.


-----Taeyang "Baby I am sorry"

"

Trust is like glass. You think you can see through it, that you know what is on the other side of it. You pretend you know your partner and he knows you. But its all an illusion. One day you bump against it and it cracks and you cut yourself and you bleed.
Look how much i bleed, go ahead, i dont care, look at my scars.

“


你说我爱你太多就快要把你淹没
你害怕幸福短暂一秒就崩落
分开是一种解脱让你好好的想过
我想要的那片天空你是不是能够给我
你 说我给你太多却不能给我什麽
分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑
爱情是一道伤口我们各自苦痛
沉默是我最后温柔是因为我太爱你



I wondered why I can't stop all the heartache.
I don't wanna cry anymore.
Worse still, there's nobody here. Why.. It's like torn into many many pieces and I can't fix it back anymore..



Everyone wants me to be a strong girl, wants me to focus on studies.\
可是真的很痛很痛



Some things, you'll see it, or you'll never be able to.
Just for now, let me rely on you.

Closed Off From Love


Chinese oral later and I can't even remember where I dumped my freaking oral passages -.-
Good luck with that.
Hope my phone don't die later (will be damn boring in library).


Update, and my phone just died.

Not My Sunshine Anymore


Thank you for everything, everybody.
Detailed post tomorrow.


I'm tired now! I've to survive this.
After all, I can still... smile?
You gave up, our love, our smile, our memories.

First Day of being Seventeen
Ya I will pull through the other 365 days,
Alone or not, it doesn't matter.
For I still get to see you every now and then (:

It's terrible.
Something seems to be stuck in my throat.
Something seems to get into my eyes.
No I'm not crying or upset, not a little.

35 more minutes.
Seventeen.
Another reason to be stronger, another responsibility.


I still see you playing facebook, talking to your friends.
You don't belong with me anymore.
Actually, I don't think I've the courage. Somebody please hug me longlonglong and cry with me. No, I'm not crying, no I'm not crying, no I'm not crying
I'm not upset because time is passing by and he hasn't call. No, jielin, it's happy birthday, not sad birthday. Cheerupcheerup!
I hope.


Off to hug ding ding now. Yes, comfort is what I needed.
No, it's you that I need.

There Are Some Things Time Can't Wash Away
You can be that thing, or you can don't be.
I don't wish it's the second one. really. It was so correct a while ago.


I'm really confused about this and that. Sometimes I hope somebody just assures me everything is okay. Why should I let you go? I wondered.
Why shouldn't?


Time will make feelings fade? or will it just make it stronger?
I know.
Staying or leaving? I really don't know.
Tomorrow is 18may, today is the last day of me, being 16 lools.


If I can, I wanna be childish once more.
For I will grow up tmr.



Some things are more than meet the eye.






turn on the volume now, click play.
listen to this. let music speaks what i wna say.



cant believe, i've to sing this song instead.

I guess I'll settle with a simple birthday wish.

May Reach-May Right So Kisses On House
I hope, one day you will understand.

This a a tradition, I guess I'll just get it over and done with.
Sixteen, really lovable sixteen. I remembered it didn't started great. But at least I wasn't alone haha!

As what I've been doing, I'll check what I set about a year ago from now, and see, how much did I achieve.


(from June archive, Dont ask me why june haha!)
So,
And here's sixteen wishes for Jielin's sixteen;

1. A1 for chinese MT O level (mentioned) done
   
2. Do my very best for the coming O's. sort of?
   
3. Treasure My Love. ♥ didn't
   
4. Friends Forever, not forever yet can't deduce. :x
   
5. Grow Another cm or so. most probably shrink
   
6. Hair Grow Long&Healthy. Longer, healthier? but it's getting screwed
   
7. Love To Smile, Always. Love to, but didn't hah!
   
8. Have Some Talent/Capability Nope, don't think so.
   
9. Some Weight Management To Note. Need to gain weight now ._.
   
10. Happier Family. Yes I guess,
    
11. Scholarship Nope I'm too stupid
    
12. A Better Brain Sort of love mine now
    
13. Passion To Learn On and off
    
14. Some Materialistic Adoring To Do Too much!
    
15. Love My Sixteen Like No Other Yes, did but too little
    
16. Yes, World Peace. HMM?
    

Sixteen things I wanna accomplished in this year.

1. Study real hard. Forgotten
   
2. Put in effort in my friendships Not too much
   
3. Love my love very much. The wrong time
   
4. Do not give up yoga Abandoned
   
5. Exercises more Impossible
   
6. Regulate study periods. Kill me please
   
7. Able to think on feet. A bit better
   
8. Overcome some stupid mentality. I did, but more to go.
   
9. Forgo past and look towards loving future. Did, but forgo important lessons as well
   
10. Not to be so stubborn/harsh Er, a little better but still sucky about this.
    
11. Get rid of excess meat all over. Did except flabby limbs
    
12. Accomplish my life-mission (a lot of A) Hmm ok la
    
13. Change my looks. Plastic surgery? I can't remember why I wrote this.
    
14. Work for money doing
    
15. Live For myself. Trying
    
16. Love jielin the most! Aiming
    

:D



Okay, for seventeen, I don't know.. wishes again?
(sorry I'm still so childish to believe in birthday wishes)

So do I have to give 17 wishes??? No.
Just a few, important ones. I grow up.

1. Hurt nobody, not even myself.
2. Cherish, care and see happiness from a different point of view.
3. Excel academically.
4. Happy fairy visit me daily. (:
5. Family be safe and healthy.
6. One that is willing to carry a stone (don't understand this? it's okay, don't think a lot of people do anyway)
7. Trust and love.
Just seven.


But there's seventeen things I wna accomplished this year.
1. Going up on stage next year to receive recognition
2. Pursue my passion
3. Enjoy life with friends
4. Smile everyday
5. Let some things be part of the past
6. Do not be affected anymore
7. Hang out more with cute friends :D
8. Dont FML anymore
9. A change
10. Save money
11. Save time
Blahblahblah. this is bullshit
wait till I think of better ones. ._.

Two Parallel Lines That Never Intersect Again
but it's okay, no matter what's your reason, I'm too tired to know.
Whether it's me, you or her, it doesn't matter anymore.
So what if I got to know everything? so what if you know everything?
Things will just remain what it is now.
True, part of my didn't wna let you go. But the other part is tired of this blind mice game.
If you're coming back, you will. No matter how far I go. No matter which man I've been with.

You removed things we shared, you cancel me out of your life.That's good, I'll just do the same.
Even without pictures in handphone, without "ai" as display name, without those keychains, without anything that spells jielin, you will be back if it's really meant to be. If not, even if I'm right beside you, your heart's not here.
I guess you'll be much better, for I can see you're happier.




Back from the buffet. I think I wasted money, and hearts ._.
But thank you, it's good.
Ate like super little just now. It's okay I just needed time to regain those huge appetite. : o
Going to meet X girl later on (finally) after I grab my physics notes and finish GPP draft.





Thanks G for cheering me up. I prepared for the worst, but not the worst for summertest.
I said I will ace it, I'm waiting for my present okay.
Ty for tht little thing you left outside my door too (: awesome friend


Ok, blog perhaps, later on!
misses to x girl :D:D

Edited: I think I will go for the extreme. Overly defined eyes, that means, hey I'm trying to strong now, no crying.


Today will be the last day I dress up, for you.

If one layer of make up is about enhancing beauty,
Two will be for confidence.
Three to cover pain.
Four is to hide scars.
Five is to become anyone but no yourself.


:/ How many do you think I need?
Preparing to go out now.
:D

A Leopard Never Changes Its Spots, Once And There Will Be The Second Time


Hello! Back from long long day :D
Been meeting up lots of people nowadays and it's pretty.. good I guess.
I've found a new goal in my life, happy smiles :D
I hope I'll continue this, I hope really~

Went to library to study with 12A girls first. Lols stupid me overslept.
Then met J. The other J was busy :(
Went to get an early present!
And that is "DKNY Be Delicious" Smell super nice.'
I think you spent too much!! No next time okay! Seriously, I don't know why I wanted it.
It's like 4 lessons of tuition for one perfume o.o


Pink Princesse is a "love" gift from xx, but I don't think I need that anymore!
:D I don't need something intangible and.. yup!
Thank you very very much! :D


After buying present, went to have dimsum/dinner at hongkong cafe!
First time :D He did all the orderings :D
Place was really comfy and nice, good to chill and best is, quiet :D


Still feeling full now! D:
I must gain some weight ~


After that talked and J sent me home (:
Thank you for today and the awesome gift.





Been taking lots of pills nowadays, zinc pills, w pills, vitC pills, ginseng pills -.-
around 20 pills each day.
Cause I screwed my body up, school, love and stress!
Gonna make it better. I hope it helps a little. :D



Tmr going out to celebrate birthday. Good to have family there y'know.
Thank you for accepting me, loving me and taking care of me.

And, Most probably, on 18may my parents will be working and I'll just spend it with dear books D:

Gonna hit the books and bed :D




Lastly, would like to thank dagirls :D love them, all the J.s people. So many of them! omg
Thank you for loving me :D
And.......... you for giving me the courage to. You never said, but I know you're telling me "everything is okay, I will be there" Don't ever guess who it is, nobody will get it correct anyway.
It's totally... unexpected and irrelevant. Life is full of surprises ya!

If this is what you want,
I'll stop texting, stop missing, stop calling. Stop you coming in life ever again.
You moved on, I'm moving. No point anymore.

Jielin.. so long since I heard myself say.
Be strong, so many times I heard myself say.
Stop crying and get a life.





Everything moves on as fast as the time do.
Because if you don't, you're going to lose really, everything.
It's been a week. Terrible friday.
Everyday I tell myself, I'll be okay.
But how long do I need?









So many tests, so many fails.
I practically flunked everything.
Good way to go.
All I know now is, if I continue to be like this, I'm going to disappoint my life, myself.
Sometimes I hope I have more courage less determination.






If this new goal is going to make me slightly better, I'll do it.
Yes, :D


Finally, I found something I wanted, at least a goal, since then.

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn’t want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache. Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that’s not meant to be. Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can’t “be friends”. A friend wouldn’t mistreat a friend. Don’t settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don’t stay because you think “it will get better.” You’ll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better. The only person you can control in a relationship is you. Avoid men who’ve got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn’t marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently? Always have your own set of friends separate from his. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up. Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later. You cannot change a man’s behavior. Change comes from within. Don’t ever make him feel he is more important than you are… even if he has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less. Never let a man define who you are. Never borrow someone else’s man. If he cheated with you, he’ll cheat on you. A man will only treat you the way you allow him to treat you. All men are not dogs. You should not be the one doing all the bending…compromise is two way street. You need time to heal between relationships… there is nothing cute about baggage. Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship. You should never look for someone to complete you, a relationship consists of two whole individuals, look for someone complimentary ..not supplementary. Dating is fun… even if he doesn’t turn out to be Mr. Right. Make him miss you sometimes, when a man always know where you are, and you’re always readily available to him - he takes it for granted. Never move into his mother’s house. Never co-sign for a man. Don’t fully commit to a man who doesn’t give you everything that you need. Keep him in your radar, but get to know others.

They didn’t agree on much. In fact, they rarely agreed on anything. They fought all the time, and they challenged each other every day. But despite their differences, they had one important thing in common. They were crazy about each other.




Hello wasssup life.
Yes life is what I need.
Jielin needs to be strong!

I hope I can turn back time, to the time when I'm holding you, so tight.
Then I would tell you everything I felt. I will no longer be a bad girl.
No longer flare up for no good reason.
No longer blame you for everything bad that happens, like the weather ._.

I will cherish every second like there's no the other.
I will never let my hands leave, I'll never let you go.
I will never push you away, I'll lean on you throughout the movie.
I will look forward to every single date, even it's going to buy some groceries.
I'll not complain and whine about life, instead I'll thank god for everything he gives.



Now, heaven is punishing me. They seems to shout "YOU DESERVE IT!"




Let you go? NO, perhaps, YES.
Heart and mind, make up a decision.
Because I'm hurting you now, I don't like this.
I want the best for you, I want you to be happy even if it takes me great efforts and pain..
BUT, who will make me happy? who will consider my feelings?
Who wldn't abandon me alone?
who will stop the heartache and tears?



Somehow, I keep lying to myself, saying everything is okay, you just need time.
Yes I'll give you time.
But what if? Why do I want to subject myself to such horrendous pain? Love is blind. Love makes even genius stupid.




I wish I've amnesia, then I would be able to forget everything and all the pain.
But I dont want to.. I don't want to forget everything we shared. I rather bear the pain.


I pray to god, deities, flowers, tai shan.. blahblahblah. every single thing.
Hoping they will just stop this and return you back to me.


Pain sucks. Time sucks.



Please save me,
I don't feel like I'm living anymore.
This is faster than dying under Mdm chan's hands.

She said "Don't act as if everything is okay when it is not. It is okay not to be fine right now. You don't have to lie."

2948.) I don’t think having a boyfriend or girlfriend completes you, or is the only thing that can make you happy. Sure, they’ll make you smile till your jaw aches, laugh until you cry, but I’ve always believed that you have to be happy on your own before you can be happy with someone else.

I'll cherish today.
Jielin needs a break from crying, missing and loving.
Back when she feels slightly better!


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jin hou yao kai xin.
wo ai ni.

OMG I MIGHT END UP LIKE KY, (joining tumblr) cause the reblogging thing is awesome.
Getting sick of saving the pictures and uploading it here :D




and I think I'm suffering from "Erotomania"










To someone, also special:
Thanks for being there! :D For a moment I thought we've drifted apart. But hell no,
We just got closer haha! I'll find you at the same old spot, cause I know you'll be there (:

LLLLLOOOVVVVEEEEE DEARESTS!

One Second
Man are from Mars and women are from Venus. They are never the same yet they compromise to fit each other.



Back from massive tuition-ing. Haha!
Coming weekday will have another 2 hours session.
I've changed my password, to something I wanna use for long long time, (but I didnt)
:S HAHA HACK ME lol.

Love Is Blind


I know you don't want me to be upset about it.
But practically I can't stop my heart from aching.
No matter how strong I appeared to be, I'll still be defeated by the cold and lonely night.


I wondered what's wrong with me too.
Turning and let go, how many times have I repeated this to myself. Umpteen.
Then why I can't stop missing you all day long?


It is irony, everything never make sense.
But that's how it works.




What I told you yesterday, I really hope you can make a decision.
yet I'm taking a risk here, it's a live for die thing.



That's what I'm risking: To Love, To Hope, To Try.
But it's okay. Good things are worth fighting for.
I hope I can give your the strength and courage to let things go.
Baby I give you courage and strength, please trust in us.

As usual, written above is for you
One In A Million ♥

Hellooooo :D
Alright today is pretty okay.
Had burger king as breakfast today. idk why I'm utra full. : o
Then went to IJ for flashmob.
The sun is practically roasting us alive.
Everything is finalized now I hope it would be a success.

After that it's just a little slacking before going home.
Going out later, : / so now I've to do some work.

Person L:
And thank you for understanding, thank you for being there. thank you for answering my ridiculous questions on MSN. thank you for your encouragements. thank you (:


And to person B too :D and C, D, E, F,... K.

You asked "why cant I cherish you like how I did to other people"
I don't have to answer, I've to show.
Thank you for entertaining me even when you're tired.
I didn't know I'm such a responsibility.

Slept at 1am, right after u talked to me. It was great hearing from you again.
Now it's going 3. Woke up at 2.30am and it seems like I've slept for a day.
My mind is too excited about tmr, no later.


Drank some hot milk alrdy.
I dont wna feel tired when I met u ltr, (:









It's 3am now, and I miss u like crazy.
I dont have happiness in marriage, but I have happiness in life : being contented with little things.
And one is to stay by your side
one is to be able to talk to u
one is having awesome friends.



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Morning!
I wished I can be this alert in lecture haha!
Went to facebook and 'like' a lot of things, pretty cool. I've never like so much things before
I've never really slow down my pace to look at the world around me.
Now I did I wondered if it's too late?


The last few hours was pretty good, my mind is in deep sleep mode cause I don't remember thinking of anything. : o
But when I snapped awake, I feel a part of me is gone.
That's the thing about thinking too much.


what kaiyuan has been posting starts to make sense now.
yup right, check his tumblr up.

I don't wanna see the old jielin anymore.
Need a change, i'll make a change. :D
Stay tune haha!



it's like a peaceful death.
We knew love was there before, maybe there still is now.
Just that it's not the right time.
If fate cross our path again, maybe then will be the right time.



By then, if there is, I believe both of us is more mature and able to shoulder much more responsibility and ready for commitment. I hope there is that day.

Love songs ain't for me anymore.

I wonder whether seow wen old folks home take in people with heartache.
:/


This blog has been with me through thick and thin, I'm not deleting it.

Just wna share something before I leave.

Love Gone


I guess we both tried our very best. Maybe perhaps.
But one thing for sure, I saw you smile again.
All these times must be tough uh?


Thanks for the great birthday gift. -.-







I'll just have to move on because I'm left with no choice.
So after everything I'm still the one being left behind..


I started with the end in my mind, just like this.



But it dont seems to work

HELLLLLLLOOOOOO it's Friday.
I'm doing GPP meeting now,
Blog later on :D

Beauty is about portraying the pretty side and hiding the ugly you (L)


I think I've to get on the tracks again -.-
A pok running = slowpok.
And that pok is me.

I blur until last round also don't know, have to wait for apple to tell me go lols!




Okay, brief update and a picture.
Nowadays pictures will be all about me, if you're lucky haha! ps I didn't go out and malfunctioning phone.
gonna do some tutorials and feed my workers in hotel city! :D

Lastly, full marks for chi vocab test :D
Not exactly proud of it, just happy. HEEE

People are getting crazier nowadays.
Wanting something that belongs to other is the last you you should do. -.-
Perhaps it's that good, or you're just another loser.





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I just realised my keyboard is clotted with dust (yucks TTM)
Did clean but it's a few years old thing. Maybe it's fungus or what.
Tell me, fungi grow in keyboard?

LOL



I submitted PI today, it's like phew finally.
Gonna kick start GPP though it's quite late alrdy.
Loads of work to catch now. I'll post again tmr once I got hold of the expired pictures,
(Hate life w/o a camera of my own)
Picture-less posts = boring like mad.




Last thing is I took 5 stations test today.
Hmm some are really bad/not up to expectations but !! I tried my best already. : o

Sit&reach: 42 (I tore my muscles because of this, but hey a C :D)
Sit up: 39 (Fats are wriggling around my waist)
Standing jump: 195 (short legs can jump ok!)
Shutter run: 11 (reaction slow no choice haha!)
Pullup: 32 (ya I've no comments for this, glad?)


:D So yes, I'll make tmr the last time I step on track and run continuously for 16mins
JY!

It's not me being sensitive, it's you being different ---- unknown.


I guess this quote relates to me the best right now. -.-
It has been nearly a day of mass editing of PI, (played too much during the few days :x)
Homework is waiting for me to touch and revision needs to be done.
I hate to say this, but I'm running out of time.
People got tongue-tied, I'm time-tied. : /





Tomorrow school is starting, in fact less than a few hours later.
Hectic week again,
All the best people, all the best Jie Lin.

Today went to SSC after tuition. Overslept btw. Sucha lousy teacher.
Anyway, went to Daiso and realised I grabbed a few worthless things. -.-


Spent 2 hours to pack my table and things.
Nice ftw, ;D
Picture up, tmr :D


And only losers mimic, -.-

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY BOY :D

Hello love, I supposed I'm the first one to wish you happy birthday on this special date.
This is the 2nd birthday spent with you and indeed, very happy and meaningful.
Although today didn't start well, it ended beautifully.
It wasn't anything romantic yet it is worth remembering.


Hope you like the present.
I can't sing, I really can't.
Worse than slaughtering a chicken I guess.
So I got this baby to sing to you instead.
I'll put every song we love in together with all the memories.
I hope there's enough space haha!


Hope you never forget today too my love.
The terrifying zoo seems fun and enriching with you around :D
(L)



I'll still post the pictures taken, I'll share.
But I don't share certain things, it's like monopoly in that area.
I'll be the boss yeah :/




And one of that is you ,
Once again, happy birthday koh love.
And for the 19months we've been through, C: