by - May 07, 2010

Love songs ain't for me anymore.

I wonder whether seow wen old folks home take in people with heartache.
:/


This blog has been with me through thick and thin, I'm not deleting it.

Just wna share something before I leave.

坐在这角落
心里很多话想说
我和你的错
就是舍不得放手
深爱你的我
早就应该让你自由
知道我以后
需要一直往前走
也许是越在乎
越会彼此的伤害
这样的爱情
又算是什么


爱不在

应该让自己从回忆中离开

爱不在

我们都已不存在彼此未来
有时候
对爱有太深太多依赖
好像你失去在这世界
还能够孤单的自由

是曾经有的梦
现在只剩一场空
心里好多疑问
你忘了你的承诺
笑我自己没有用
眼泪无言的流下来
迟早还是要面对
这段感情的伤痛
是因为越在乎
给彼此伤害更多
有了距离以后
看到不同的你和我

爱不在
慢慢让自己从回忆中离开
爱不在
我们都已不存在彼此未来
有时候
对你还是会拥护关怀
可是心里已经太明白
不是爱(这不是爱…)不是爱

有时候
不管对爱有多少的依赖
就算再不愿意再伤心
我明白
我们只能放手
爱不在


I hope this would be the last time I do this.
There are other important things in life too, not just you.
Although I'll take long before I found the other.
It's okay.
There's too much to forget cause everywhere I turn, I see something that once belongs to you and I.
Remember mr-mrskoh.blogspot.com? I lied, I didn't delete it,
I didn't read them, I don't wna end up crying again.
Maybe I did read a little.
I finally realized how you felt then.
but at least.. you knew I still love you,
When I'm here now, I don't know how you felt.
You told me everything is okay, but the next moment you told me everything is bad bad bad.
My bad. My bad.

They're just too precious to be deleted.
I find myself being stupid again.
I can't stop staring at my phone, just in case you happen to call again.
I jolly well know my phone is going to explode any moment,
and I also know you wldn't call.

ohwell.



There's a GP essay, asking us to define happiness in marriage.
"Mutual trust, support each other and sticking together through thick and thin and lastly, grow old with you"

That's was what I defined it as.
So I guess I don't have happiness in that area now? lols


Yea, happiness is by choice not chance.
Because afterall, it isn't nature that pulled us apart. We did.
I wna laugh at every little thing in life, but it's kinda difficult now.








Me too, hates emotional posts, but this is the only place I can talk right now.
It would be 2x more painful anywhere else.
3x painful when I saw you smile, irony.
4x painful when u left.
It's kinda pathetic too, blasting music to hide my sniffles.

18may isn't a good day, and this happens every year.





I think this would be the last time,
Iloveyou, really.


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