I hope this would be the last time I do this.
There are other important things in life too, not just you.
Although I'll take long before I found the other.
It's okay.
There's too much to forget cause everywhere I turn, I see something that once belongs to you and I.
Remember mr-mrskoh.blogspot.com? I lied, I didn't delete it,
I didn't read them, I don't wna end up crying again.
Maybe I did read a little.
I finally realized how you felt then.
but at least.. you knew I still love you,
When I'm here now, I don't know how you felt.
You told me everything is okay, but the next moment you told me everything is bad bad bad.
My bad. My bad.

They're just too precious to be deleted.
I find myself being stupid again.
I can't stop staring at my phone, just in case you happen to call again.
I jolly well know my phone is going to explode any moment,
and I also know you wldn't call.

ohwell.



There's a GP essay, asking us to define happiness in marriage.
"Mutual trust, support each other and sticking together through thick and thin and lastly, grow old with you"

That's was what I defined it as.
So I guess I don't have happiness in that area now? lols


Yea, happiness is by choice not chance.
Because afterall, it isn't nature that pulled us apart. We did.
I wna laugh at every little thing in life, but it's kinda difficult now.








Me too, hates emotional posts, but this is the only place I can talk right now.
It would be 2x more painful anywhere else.
3x painful when I saw you smile, irony.
4x painful when u left.
It's kinda pathetic too, blasting music to hide my sniffles.

18may isn't a good day, and this happens every year.





I think this would be the last time,
Iloveyou, really.