I'm changing. For the better I hope.

I look at myself, I know.

I don't want to be what I used to be.

I cut my hair, I gained some weight (Which I regretted HAAAH), I meet up with lot of friends, I cherish them.

I love myself more, I found my passion in life.

But seriously, is this the me I wanted?

In some form yes. 

A more independent girl, a stronger will, a better person.

There's consequences with all these.

I wonder I wonder.

Vulnerable yet a believer, or just screw that?

I know I can pull through this, I know.

It's easy.

But by doing all that, it makes jielin a more cold-blooded person imo.

I, don't feel anything anymore.

Strangely.

I'm scared.

I'm scared I forget how to love.

Look at me, I'm different already.

So different to a point that I myself can't recognise.