There's so many things I want to do, places I want to go, things I want to buy but whether it happens or not really boils down to how much resources (money) I've.

Should I really really spend about 500 for the trip? I mean, yes, I can earn them back but the momentarily poorer by 500 bucks sucks. I can't do anything I like, eat everything I want.


PS, I'm searching high and low for a money tree.

I've made sure you have something to read every single day. You're welcome. So do visit me
xoxo, blog.


Help me click >>>> Thanks!!

Painted my nails last night. But before they dry completely I fell asleep. So some of the polka dots smudged :(
But not very visible to others, so it's okay.

I'm really clumsy and surprisingly this colour didn't turn out to be very bad. I love bright/striking colours but sucks at painting them....

Is it normal to feel so damn sad all the time? The deal is, I don't even know the reason. Just that, nothing can cheer me up... Like real happy. I don't even intend to be happier I just want to feel happy.

Food, shopping, chill, friends, work, tv..... nothing.




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Some people might find me weird. Well, I don't share my personal stuff/feelings that much if you know me. I'm just like that (unless you ask. I think I'm super stupid because I tend to spill the truth when someone asks something, anything). I prefer writing everything down: feelings, things I did, I learned, I got etc because nobody will ever "duh" you. If anyone does, I can remove the bloody comment box lolllol.


That's why. I mean, even if no one reads it, I will. Much better than when you say something and no one listens? Yes.



There's something very personal Idk who to tell... In fact, I've been thinking and worrying about the same thing over and over again. whether I would want to share it here or not.... Depends ba. Because it's so...... you would probably think I'm making it all up to grab your attention or I'm over-thinking. Well, I just wanna say, you're not me.

See you.

So excited for this skin. Spent my afternoon doing it! Nice nice nice? Managed to change the title formatting and such. Plus no more fading effect on photos! Much better right?!! Hahaaa at least I think so.


Anyhow, didn't even plan to do this skin..... I was just fooling around with yx's camera (SUPER DUPER GOOD OKAY) and snapped a very nice photo! I think.... (out of the 100 odds o_____o)  Then I thought why not make it my banner picture?

Because the space I've above is soooooo limited I've to crop the picture. Meh still nice.


Tried different photoshop styles/brushes. Love the 'light-fading-in-the-background" effect. To all of you who are free, go explore photoshop!

BTW, photoshop =/= liquefy. There's so much tools/effects. You'll love it!

Maybe I'll blog about how to make this banner.... background loool. 


Note:
1. I did edit this picture. 
Overlay(super love this), eyelashes and eyebrows. Justifiable? I mean, this picture will be here for a long time...
2. The original picture looks like this:


 

Today, the school gave us a reality check. Congrats to those that did really well. ^^
Was pretty heartened to see myself there (despite being the last of the lot hahahah lol I will work harder).

I mean, at least I'm improving? According to the data, I made a leap of 30 rank points. Ya I know my prelim1......


Perhaps you didn't do as well as you wanted to... but heck that this isn't the last last lap yup? You've 1 more chance baby girl! You know who you are??!!! I know you read my blog.
Okay I don't wish to spill too much but don't let them look down on you? Remember what you wanna show hem? REMEMBER? Score your As in A level and seal their mouth with that.

Okay pretty hard for you to relate who I'm talking about..... but just do it.


This goes out to all other muggers yeap!


I'm really glad there are many 12A peeps scoring excellent grades. Keep on going! I hope that dream does come true! Tomorrow would be the last official school day.
I just want to say I'm really grateful to have a class like this. Yes, we did have conflicts but that cannot devalue how important you guys are to me. It's the whole of 2 freaking years together. Old friends, new friends, good friends, girlfriends, best friends. Awwww :3

I'm happy to have a bunch of mad entertaining people.
Well, I might have said things that hurt you or what.... I'm utterly sorry. Pack all the unhappiness; for I never take them to heart. I.. Parting is always THIS hard.
There are things I regretted doing/saying. I'm irrational like that. Ya, I will try to be a better.... girl wtf.



You awesome peeps deserve a whole post! Yes!!! I will do it! Later on... I need to work on the events/pictures........ (if I'm not lazy to do it. As in the pictures).....But so sad some things aren't suppose to see light. Never mind let me think about it.





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Back to the mugging issue. Okay JL please mug. M-U-G C-H-I-O-N-G OKAY.

I think...... I would sacrifice the time to blog :(:(:(:( (AM I IRRITATING LOLOLLLLOOOL TROLLLLLLL)



I know all of you want me to do well hahahaha!
Well, I will hop back to my little corner (here) once every 2 days or so.
Just no daily updates.

Spare you from posts like "Hi, I read chem, did Maths and added information on poverty into my puny brain. I'm still living, don't worry. Xoxo. See you tomorrow with more updates on the work I did".

Quick, thank me. :D:D:D:D Okay I'm weird again.




All relationships are about understanding and compromising.
So don't abandon this little space alright!! ^^
I will blog all the interesting events that happened/going to happen or whatsoever after 29Nov. Wait for me sweethearts.

Ohhh the money-alike thing is what Mrs Yap gave... and a tropical cherry tic tac. I'm sold. Tropical cherry is so nice! Do you know where can I get it? :(
Not forgetting the chocolate Derek gave me today... Is it Anders? I can't remember but it's the first ever mint chocolate I love! So nice!







Omg finally done typing the 1k+ words essay. I really really dk why there's endless econs essays to do....

Have another one waiting for me later. Mehish.

Everyone asking me to do this do that. Damn irritating fml.

Idkw but I feel I need music all of the sudden. So I went to mixpod (ya I know right) and chose most of my youtube playlist. Sorry if I scare you.... because I jumped when the music started playing. Lol. Anyhow, I spent tons of time searching for various songs/good quality ones. Seriously, any other better sites to have a music playlist with better quality music?
Do recommend if you know!


And by now, if you've realised, it's all in English. Told ya the Jap/korean craze will be over in no time. Sticking to Ang moh songs heheh.. Ohh there's lots of classics as well. If you've the time do listen to them hahahahah.

Something really useful: For some songs (esp Nikki Flores), do increase your speakers' volume. The quality is is booohooo but the songs are awesome.
Volume can be adjusted - see the dot around the play button? Just play around with it.


1. Close to you - Olivia Ong
2. Fly me to the moon - Olivia Ong
3. When - Nikki Flores (you need this louder)
4. I'd lie - Talyor swift
5. I will be - Leona Lewis
6. Behind these hazel eyes - Kelly Clarkson
7. Selfish - Nikki Flores
8. Mine - Avery (prefer Taylor Swift but I can't find hers!) Anyhow, this song reminds of UK sooooo much. This song accompanied me throughout the flight to and from UK. Not forgetting I was humming this tune when we visited the park (Idk what's the name... sadly... you know, the one with swans and such?)
9. First of May - Olivia Ong (this is super old school but it's DAMN nice)
10. I got you - Nikki Flores
11. If I were a boy - Lisa Lavie. (prefer Beyonce but I can't find! >:( )
12. You were my everything - Aviation
13. Erase you - Nikki Flores
14. Price tag - Maddi Jane (I so love price tag by MJ! Yes, she is the one I mentioned. Hooked to the songs she covers)
15. This girl - Nikki Flores


What can't be played :( 
Grenade - burno mars
Bleeding love - leona lewis
Fall for you - secondhand serenade
Rolling in the deep - Adele


Other than Taylor Swift, I love Nikki Flores too! In fact, Olivia Ong as well! I love most of their songs but it's just so hard to find!! You go youtube it on your own, alright?

Byebye my computer's timing screwed up again. I need to be IT rep now looolloool.

Omg I seriously have nothing to blog about. Actually, there's some but I'm too lazy... it'd take up a long time and I'd be very tired after I'm done with it.
Maybe.... I will blog again later.... since I've 1.5 essays to write. Nice.

Waaahhhhh why everyone say Johnny English is nice???!!! Tempt me to watch.
Anybodyyyy?

It seems like every person I know 1. Watched it 2. Too busy mugging? 3. Not in mood to 4. Busy 5. Ignore my shitty whines. Wth.

My last movie was Harry Potter. Errr not that bad right?



Even the most possible person (aka my lao mei) also need to mug for her O's... which is 2 weeks or so away?
T____________________________T Okay I'm going to photoshop forever alone face on my picture after I done my econs..... Damn reluntant but today is the deadline. Yea........ Sian max.

An old Italian gentleman lived alone in New  Jersey .  He wanted to plant his annual tomato garden, but it was very difficult work, as the ground was hard.  His only son, Vincent, who used to help him, was in prison. The old man wrote a letter to his son and described his predicament:

 Dear Vincent,  I am feeling pretty sad because it looks like I won’t be able to plant my tomato garden this year. I’m just getting too old to be digging up a garden plot. I know if you were here my troubles would be over. I know you would be happy to dig the plot for me, like in the old days.  Love,  Papa  

A few days later he received a letter from his son. 

Dear Papa,   Don’t dig up that garden. That’ s where the bodies are buried.  Love,  Vinnie

At 4 a.m. The next morning, FBI agents and local police arrived and dug up the entire area without finding any bodies. They apologized to the old man and left.  That same day the old man received another letter from his son.  

Dear Papa,  Go ahead and plant the tomatoes now.  That’s the best I could do under the circumstances.  Love you, Vinnie.

What can you expect out of a sick girl? After my nose stopped acting like an open tap, my throat started to burn. After my throat got better, I'm k.o. with shitty headache and such. Time to sleep earlier and drink more water.

Finally much better.... now I've to face the mountain of revision and homework.
Can't wait for A levels to end, really.



Random thoughts:
1. Stay close don't go - Secondhand Serenade ♥
2. Cut by chem work, twice
3. Almost died when I touched my left ear.
4. So lazy to roll to the kitchen to grab cold green tea.
5. Have not tidy up my bed and don't have the intention to
6. Hot like shit. Why when I've to go out it will start pouring?
7. Want hope pray for a holiday trip soon.

I can't remember how many times they gave me problems this year.
And moral of the tragedy: do not attempt to mix drinking coffee, milk and milk tea. Plus sit in a jerky bus after that. Okay just let me stay in bed for a little while longer....