It even ate my tagline.



Dear-J,
Life is meaningless. When everyone is outside having fun, I actually let myself stay at home and sleep my ass away. I don't even want to wake up, not because I'm tired or what but because I know there's nothing better to do. Meaningless, isn't it? But I still wake up anyhow. Ate chocolate to cheer myself up. What's with the depression?! Pms.

Today went for pw consultation early in the morning. At least we clarified most of the stuff, now can move on.
Teachers' Day celebration. Was playing with yc's phone. Then ran out of school before the run. LOL! Like almost the whole 12A ran off. Cwp for mac breakfast but I didn't really eat. Went home with Ape and Mei. Took ezlink card and went to yishun. Ape went for her hair appointment while Mei accompanied me to do threading. Initially the feeling quite shiok but after a while pain like mad. I teared :( Checked the music school and hamsters, then went back to Northpoint. Floated around, lol an Aunty thought we sec 3-4. ^w^ Good to be short haha! Bought honey lemon drink but not really nice. cwp better. Waited for Ape to finish her treatment then went for lunch in Mayim. I think I still prefer hk cafe. ^^

After foooood, went toilet. The thing is I was lucky enough to go into the best cubicle :D The one that has controls at the side. But I didn't use since there isn't a need to. It's cool! I spent some time looking at it lol. Amazed. Sorry for being a suaku.

Went home after that, slept my life away. Wanted to go marina bay sands with p-sch peeps but I can't contact them. Well well. :(

And Riverside.. I don't know. The crazy world is making me feel there's no point going back. To the place I once missed so much, the very good teachers, the super nice food. I didn't feel like going back. No connections anymore. And since there isn't anything from the class and friends, I didn't go back. D: Maybe next year?

Blog later. Now it's time for my source of happiness. (:
在终点以前，我愿意再爱一遍

I need such thing right now. D:


Okay. Today started off pretty great. Woke up exceptionally early despite sleeping late the night before (1+am). Bathed in cold water - chill to the bone. D:
School. Ninja imparted her skills to me during assembly lol. Mad girl.

Lectures - Maths and physics. Pretty managable. Break was hectic. So many things so little time. Had pw lecture which also equals to slack/chem period (did some note taking) then chem tutorial. Still as funny as ever. So sad to know Ms Goh would be going away after this year. Cross fingers let's not get some ahem teacher.

Lunch, start of depression. Had pw consultation and what? have to change our area of focus, AGAIN? Need to coordinate all the stuff sent by people then go for consultation early tmr morning. GDML.

Quick lunch, went for chinese lecture. Pretty waste time.
Last lesson - PE! Did test for golf then went down to field. Damn stressed cause jc and yz are like right behind sm and I, waiting for us to move on. (yes we're pretty slow). So we're so desperately trying to move quickly. Many times I wondered am I playing hockey or golf - cause I didn't even position jiu hit in the end my shots ended up rolling all over the place. Anyway, before those guys catch up, I've pretty straight projectile shots okay <: Mr Tan commented on our vast improvement. Agree agree.
I want to play leh! Fun ^^


After PE cool down, went for chem SPA. At such critical exams I can dozed off. (A little when doing the calculations, yawnsss). But I finished it up. Pretty easy leh.

Waited for the guys to take their cert for YOG. SO SAD LURH OUR INVITATION TO PARTY AT UNIVERSAL STUDIOS IS DIFFERENT! on a happier note, maybe, we can see the cute guy sm is talking about. lol.


Went cwp to search for cards with loke and kris. After that, home.
Slept all the way woohooo! I just wasted my life away.
Now, tell me, should I pw/homework or sleep and think about it tmr?


Wen asked me why I got that yellow angel skin. I like yellow and I like how cute it looks. The apple logo looked like it's teeth! Awesome.
and she asked wouldn't I be reminded of the past? -__- As you've said, it's the past. furthermore, I can't be giving up something I like right?


Everyday same old things
So you're still feelin pain
Never had real love before
And it ain't her fault


She knows better but
She can't help it
Wanna tell her
But would that be selfish
How do you heal
A heart that can't feel, it's broken
His love is all she knows, all she knows, all she knows
His love is all she knows, all she knows, all she knows


You've been livin this way so long
You don't know the difference
And it's killing me
Cause you can have so much more
I'm the one your looking for
But you close your eyes on me
So you still can't see
(L) 
hypocrites _|_

Blogging with phone now lol.
Ok so today woke up late, end up late for pw meeting D:
Quicky after washing up and breakfast rushed to woodlands library.
All of us don't know our password for wireless@sg account. It's pretty bad. Wasted quite an amount of time. Spammed random pple SMS for their accounts. Luckily a few got back to me. ^^ thanks uh! I've good friends.
Did pw, only 1 tablet, Lao bin late. Did research using my phone but I dc like mad -____-

Went for lunch with der, then continued pw for a few more hours. Ended around 3+.

After which went to get something for baby ^^ nice I like lur!
Went for tuition after that. Received first teachers' day gift this year (she's so sweet isn't she?) :D
Went home after that.

I love my new phone clothes (err i address the cover of phone as clothes btw) cause it totally complement my new yellow platforms. Awesome mad chio :D
Idk why in starting to like yellow a lot a lot. But I still major in pink hahaa!

Chem spa tmr! Need to study! N do eom lalaaaaaaaa ~
I nap first ^^

Mixed feelings.

Heart wrecked,
I read on and on. I cry and cry. Both of you have been through so much. It don't relate to me but still I'm so upset. It wouldn't relate to me cause I failed in rship. RIP.

Angry.
You know, I would never date anyone that decides to dump his girlfriend for another girl. _|_
And you're not even half as cute as alt. LOL.

Worried.
I was planning to push back my appointment to after promos but the condition is getting from bad to worse.. I never exactly mention this to anyone. Should I shift my appointment to next week instead? I'm scared if it's really something bad. Ya don't bother asking me I'm sick of explaining. Maybe I would update after I'm back from the appointment. Tell me it's okay, everything is okay.

Just that you will never get an answer, so don't spend time waiting for it


Dear-J,
Woke up late! (those of you will know if you've been updating yourself through my twitter! ^^)
Prepared, I took an hour plus to make up, slow ttm -________- No choice, too long never make up already.

Went out, met JiaJun, went to cwp bought prezzie for girlf. Met her, went northpoint. ^^
A lot of people siahhhh :c in the end settled down in Swensens. Wasted efforts to travel all the way to Northpoint to have Swensens when it is available in cwp.

My Baked Pasta! ^^ A bit too sweet for my liking. First time finishing tomato pasta. Lol.

Mango lycee! Nicenice :D

She loves strawberry milkshake ^^

I wanna go back and have mango lycee, banana split/boat? (O.O?) and the salmon thingy. Damn tempting. After food (luckily we didn't order ice-cream) went to walk around. Wanted to take neoprints but there isn't much time. Blah tuition.


Mini shopping. Ya, right. Can't stand myself -_____-

Then passed Jas her pressie!

Wanted to give her a surprise but failed!
Stupid me.

Late for tuition so cabbed there. The uncle humorous lahh. :D

After tuition went back to cwp, walked around, crazy sales. Nooo noooo I'm not going to buy anything anymore.:c In debt already.

Met pecky, she's out with nic. He's pretty nice y'know! \m/  (in american slang)
They accompanied to shop around, lol.
Decided not to be lightbulb anymore *AHEM* (in Mr See Tho style lol), went home.
Sian when I'm outside my door then Jas replied my text about meeting out. Lazy to crawl back to cwp.

Western style dinner today (Mega sandwitch!).

My loots! ^^ Crazy sales yeap

Called and talked to pecky for a while. She's a funny girl. :D
Then phoned my darling. Talked. She's trying to psycho me to get a boyfriend because she can't stand me talking to her :( Bad girl! Lol then I told her to get married so she can use 'I need to wash toilet sorry no time to talk' as excuse. Hahaha!
meet me soon (L).

Changed my Facebook name to Jielin Hahawalker LOL Funneh.





I have it around my ankle. (:
Tata!

But that doesn't mean you stop dreaming,

Dear-J!
omg I didn't hand in a lot of homework this week. So many things, so little time. D:
Physics SPA was pretty okay. Had more than half an hour to check. I made 1 mistake but I'm too lazy to redo hahaa! So I just let it be. Gawr don't know what I'm thinking during that time.
Called hpb during pw period. I'm a brave girl haha! Have to take the first step yeap!

After school went CCA for like 10 minutes, checked the stocks then went home with Wen.
Spammed videos all the way. Finished a few more episodes le! :D
Dinner now then webcam if my darling is free later! Miss her! ^^

shags my posts are sooooooo damn boring even I myself can't stand it.
My life revolves around school and baking life LOL.


NOW I HAVE TO SAVE MONEY SAVE MONEY SAVE MONEY. OwO

Something to look forward to is, I'm finally meeting Girlf. tmr (L)

More videos now ^w^


Note to self: Dear-J, control your temper. Yes, control your anger. Not worth getting mad over anything. Nothing is worth.
Angry cause my life seem to suck so bad.
When the world seems to be crashing down, you have to remind yourself, life gives hope, life is happiness. You met someone so miraculously perfect, remember? ^^
 ALT is ♥
(in my dreams maybe hahah!)

Haiz idk why suddenly can't type anymore D: so you're supposed to read the post before this kay,

I forgot what I wanna blog abt already.. Till then^^
remember to see my twitter! I think the picture is interesting! I'm too lazy to load it up here:/
Wish me luck for spa tmr!!

Tonight im going some attention to physics, econs and Chinese ! I don't want to get scoldings again lalaaaaaaaa~

Last thing, I should stop saying damn. It's been appearing a bit too much . Damn my life lol

Yessssss I just tweet a picture:)
Can my twitter load here? From now on stupid random stuff I'll just tweet :D must read my boring craps okay !

Today forgot to bring charger back, waste my efforts to carry tablet all the way-________-

Physics fa today, okay la not that bad. Wished I studied a little more! Anyway thanks yz for his last minute consultation! god damn 15 minutes and I understood most of g field (it would be better if I've put in more efforts)

Ohh before I forget. Sorry for terrible horrible spelling and grammar mistakes (I spotted and laughed my ass off) I'm too lazy to edit so yeap! Bear with it :D

My pw is so screwed yet my members ain't really worried? Gr this is so frustrating-_-

It's so amazing and it gotta work


Dear-J!
Let's see, today chinese lesson was chased out of the class -______- Because I didn't finish my work lol. I shall start doing chinese from now onwards. Si Alton played with my facebook D:
After chinese went for GP lecture. Separated from meimeeiiii. :c But I'm glad I listened to the lecture. Quite entertaining and relates pretty well.
GP timed assignment. Wrote about education since the information was still fresh in my mind. Wrote a pretty lengthy one, I hope ST don't find it crappy.

After school stayed back, baked cake (baking life!), wrote the teachers' day stuff, went to relationship module. Melvin is mad funny. LOL I practically watching a comedy and laughing non-stop. He should totally be a stage performer or what.
But there are some points he mentioned and it's pretty true. I'll remember them and not make the very same mistake again lol.

One thing I find it really interesting is the rapport thing. Ya I wonder whether I have it with mei? Like erm ya we're so different. Taking sitting posture as example. yue, wen, ape and I were sitting in the similar manner, but I don't think we relate as well. Need to find rapport thingy with mei. :D


After the module rushed to toilet. damn my bladder was going to burst that very moment but I refused to leave the interesting conversation.
Did chinese till 6:30 (ya la I'm damn slow), loke convinced me not to go semb today. Waited for 900A outside school, walked to the other bus-stop cause 900A took really long, boarded 900A and it turned into Champions way. LOL.

Napped all the way once reached home. Tmr is going to be a long long long day. Not going for volunteers' celebration. :( Too late already and there's school on Friday!

On another note, we still have party for volunteers in Universal Studios! Looking forward to it!
That would be the very first time I step into Universal Studios ^^
Life as a volunteer is good, agree?


想一直牵着你的手，但我还年轻，心不定，该ze么办

Dear-J, a 5 minute quick update.

Today had the best civics lesson ever. LOL Puzzle piecing. So funny we're supposed to 'trade' in the end we are like fighting for the pieces instead. ^^ Love my class, mad funny.

Lectures was fine except for econs, a bit sleepy :o The good yet irony thing is, I actually understand chem pretty well when I didn't even read up on the stuff taught during YOG duty. (opps!)

PW, GRRR. Hates pw now. -_____-
I dropped by 2 bucks :(:(:(:( Stupid me.
After school went for consultation. Hmm did I learn anything? Not sure haha!
Then for Chinese extra lesson. Sian always got extra lessonssssssss.
Not to mention there's GP timed assignment tmr, maths and physics FA and thurs and chem SPA next mon! D:

Life is full of hope, as long as you choose to believe. 
Me want play ping pong! (aka table tennis LOL)

*looks at ALT, awww he's cute!*
nights!

Yessssss didn't use computer from just now till now!(:

This is getting weird, for the first time I fell asleep when I'm using comp! So decided to keep all those mountainful of work, off the comp and sleep. I need to blog everyday if not I'll feel damn weird D:

Sch was bad, don't wna mentioned bad stuff -.-
Bought some stuff, clearance sale, it's like buy one get one :)
Fml I need to sleep now tmr have to wake up early and finished all the overdued work. Busy laaaaa,


I thought finally no extra lesson but suddenly, we have Chinese, gah.


Ohh one good thing that happened was, I only had 1 meal in sch today! Disclipined(; but I feel like fainting during lessons, serious lol.


Alright good night, I cannot laze in bed tmr! Remember jielin, mental change :D

想一

OH YEA OH YEA OH YEA HEY!
FOUND MY LONG LOST STYLUS! I LOVE DAD ^^

OH FINALLY, I'VE GATHERED ENOUGH FATS NOW. LET'S TRY THE SLIMMING DIET AND EXERCISES. *HOPE I'VE ENOUGH DETERMINATION*

I'M SCARED OF SCHOOL! :( I DON'T KNOW WHY. SO ALIEN LEH.
D:

THIS WEEK I MUST
1. STUDY FOR PHYSICS SPA BEFORE THE ACTUAL SPA, WHICH IDK WHEN O.O
2. GO BAI BAI (TMR!!)
3. VISIT THE LIBRARY
4. FINISH EOM AND GPP AND SURVEY -___-
5. STUDY FOR ECONS
6. JIAN FEI PLAN
7. KEEP MY TABLE TIDY
8. MEET DARL & PY!
9. PREPARE A SURPRISE!
10. GET NEW STUFF FOR BABY. ^^
11. DO HOMEWORK!

don't know why blog in caps but yeap! And new songs in playlist! Actually OLD songs. just feel like listening to them hahaha!

But I Realised Big Brown Eyes Can Hypnotise.
I never will let a man control my emotions but when he smiles, I feel like a little child


Dear-J!
Do read lastconfession-s.tumblr.com. ^^ Tumblr is awesome okay.

Daddy sent me to tuition in the morning. Dropped by phone! LOL! Luckily daddy picked it up for me if not I die. Can't focus during tuition because keep thinking of my baby. :(
After 2 hours, went to yishun. Thank god Aiy waited for me outside the library. Met Der. Went in and started working on our project. Stupid, don't have account for wireless@sg. (Yes idk how to sign up for one). No phone + no wireless = handicapped. Did brainstorming and a ltitle GPP. Ah Bin came. Split the job. Work on pw for 2 hours + and then tablet died.

Went to Mac for food, yes for the first time eating alone there. Prepared for working life. lol.
Walked around Northpoint, did some shopping, bought some stuff and bus-ed to admiralty for tuition.
Went home after that.


Going bai bai tmr (cause I broke a mirror, sian) it simply fell off from the table to my lap. -______-


Last few YOG pictures!

3.2MP. LOL

Morning shift with Patrice!

Wen, V and chio hungary gold medalist!

Ape and Mei!

Loots from last day.

Ermmm others that require photoshopping will be uploaded! Need to fix Dan's center parting haa!

I DON'T WANT SEVEN YEARS OF BAD LUCK! I JUST BROKE MY MIRROR -____-
TODAY IS A SUAY DAY.
LOST MY PHONE JUST NOW AND NOW, BROKE MY MIRROR.

Should I risk it, can't resist it, this has caught be by surprise



Dear-J!
Last day of duty for YOG yesterday :c Still remember how hectic and blur I was during the first day. Now I can answer ALMOST all questions. Really love to volunteer for such events! Met really great leaders who helped us along the way.This event made me a better person, really! I've to think on my feet every moment, tend to different people with different needs. I wouldn't do as well without Patrice's guidance. Hahaaa I always called him Francis I don't know what's wrong with me too.

So yesterday I'm glad everything was good. After duty ended had our 'last' lunch there. Chicken was fantastic. Drank a lot of orange juice too. :o. Rushed back to school for AQ test, but Mr See Tho was late. So started AQ test 1 hour later. Hmm I did 2 crap paragraph, at least there's two. Flunked my comprehension beautifully .___. Postponed Econs FA since I don't have time. Had PW consultation. Went to CCA see see look look, passed some drinks to ys and went home. Quickly charge my dead phone, rush out. Met wen on bus and went to SSS again. Went to third storey watched the finals. Le Clos Chad got silver. Hungary got lots of good swimmers. Met the rest. SPAM PICTURES ^^. (Y) and I got 3 signatures as well.

Initially only yue, wen and I wanted to take pictures with him de but after that everyone came running. He stunned, LOL! Like him too!

ISO w/o wen

Caecilia!

Caecilia and lovely Altro. ^^

Zhaozhao. :)

Closing by Julia - singing theme song of YOG

Le Clos Chad receiving lyo! (PS for low quality taken from third storey)

Minute Maid!

Vinuuuuus!

Loke! Can I stop blinking?

Wen! She looks chio here (:

Spot that hot guy? ^^

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LOL WEN AND I'M GOING TO BLINK AGAIN WTH.