"Second chance, yes you can have it, provided you deserve it"

I know I don't really need you in my life but I just like how it feels.
That's why I keep holding on.
I know I don't really love you nor remember those things we used to share but I just know it's there.
That's why I keep holding on.
I know it doesn't seems to hurt now but I just want to remind myself I've you before.
That's why I keep holding on.
I know I don't want you anymore and I wouldn't love you in the near future,
And that's why I don't know why I keep holding on.

When I'm hopeful about the future the past seems to tie me down.
I guess I just want dramas in my life. Yea I guess I finally know why some things happened,
Cause I want drama in my life. -.-

Thanks for the talk, now I got the problem.
Courage is what I shown in this post. It's like flipping me open to anyone possible.
You know me, then you would understand why.
I think something yx said is very true. very inspiring. Girl you grown a lot. I'm glad you think through.


yx said 'you hold on cause you're scared nobody would fill up that place after he's gone. You're scared how empty and lonely it will get. You're scared nobody can fill up that place. You're scared you forgot what is the feeling of love. You just want securities in your life, you just like the feeling of being seen as everything by someone. That's why, that's why you jump from one to another. Count the number of people you been in a relationship with. And ask yourself why.. Ain't them one to replace the other? Yes I know I'm like that too that's why we need to change. Let's just promise ourselves we get over the past, there's a reason why they didn't make it to our future, there's a reason why they moved on without you, there's a reason why they broke all the promises they made. And the reason ain't good, obviously so let's stop lying to ourselves. So we would get over them and promise ourselves, the next boy isn't because he's there to 'replace' the emptiness the previous one made, he's not there to pick up all those broken pieces and mend them, he's not there to complete your life. He's there because you know you two would be able to comprehend, compromise. And you smile because you're happy, not because you want to tell others you are happy. Life would be meaningful with him around. But don't get too close, it's pretty good to let him miss you once in a while. The only vow you would make to him is in a church, when you're in the prettiest white gown and staring right into his deep captivating eyes. Then for the rest of your life you would see him waking up right beside you. No matter how old and ugly he would be in the future, how weak or sick he might be, the love never dies. You stay beside him not because of responsibility, time or for attention but because you know you would never want him to miss out your happiness. You would double your happiness with him and let him dry your tears. Don't worry if arguments and fights happened, they are supposed to strengthen your relationship. And when the burning flame of love dies, you know you would still stay on beside him. And that's what you must look for, ask yourself whether he would stay when you're ugly old nag, whether he would stay when the flame dies. You know the answer best. You know whether he's the one or not, you just know when time comes. That's amazing isn't it?  Look slowly, everything is arranged. Don't worry. Let things go naturally."