Wasn't pointing to 1 specific event for the post before this. Nor person.


There's too much people out there trying to put the words in my mouth, their ideas in my brain.



I still those that love me. :) just saying.

Feed on my self-esteem until none is left








Wednesday, Thursday, Friday
School.
Didn't even realise I didn't blog for quite some time. Weird.

School is so busy nowadays. I will give up computer time for shopping, tv and sleep. Been sleeping before 12. Or 12.30am. Good good.


Got some stuff these few days.
1. Pens
2. Vans
3. Hair stuff. Go B1 chameleon today. Everything 10 for $5. How to resist?!

Not very nice+new but there were some good stuff. Anyhow, I need something other than all the frustrating shit I've been going through. 
Got 20 items in total for $10. Worth it.
Love the zebra print hair tie.



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Woke up super late today. Rushing like mad. Forgot to bring most of my work fml. Stoning throughout most of the lessons. Mood was horrible.






Sometimes it's pretty hard.

"When someone asked you what's wrong. You couldn't answer because they were the reason"
A quote I can never comprehend, until today.

I'm easily influenced and tend to change my opinion on things if you try to reason it out.


It was driving me crazy because sometimes people don't understand.
The thing is, if I got it wrong once, it's alright, I'd try again. Twice, thrice.. etc. But come to a point when I'm so scared of making any errors deemed "wrong" in their eyes I can't do/like what I want anymore.


People are so quick to pass judgment and they never consider how you'd feel about it.
Even if you dislike something, phrase them in a better way?

Being truthful is good but not to the extent you forget others do have feelings too.
Everyone views different things differently. 



When I open up, people either don't care or judge. So, what's the point?
Extremely weird to come out from my mouth but this is exactly how I feel nowadays.




I'm still a happy girl after everything but maybe just teeny bit less happy.

Was a little taken aback when Aunt broke the news to us.
I don't want anything to change now. I just want everyone to be happy and healthy.


Was really distracted, even during dinner. Yami yogurt didn't really cheer me up.

Now I wish there's a cure to everything.
Now I wish to cuddle my dad, my mum, my aunt.. anyone close.
Love the laugters we had. 


Nothing like family. If you haven't realised.

For moments don't wait, don't repeat, so don't forfeit










Hello.
Monday
School. Anything interesting? Not that I can remember. That means nothing, written in a longer way.
Had a nice dinner with dad. Plan to go xing wang but cancelled because mum cooked dinner. Super tiring day. Sequence all jumbled up.



Okay show you some super fail photoshop pictures lol.

Hello world! I'm back from HP7! Omgzxzzz so exciting!!! I can't believe I finished all 8 movies.
No more yearly movies to watch already. Sad. Comeon! Somebody make some good action-packed movies (Love lord of the rings too but sad, only got 3 parts to it). Twilight cannot compare. Haizx.


*go emo*




Anyhow, it was good! But expected a little more here and there. Was laughing at Voldemort's laughter. Hiakhiakhiak. LOL.


And can't help checking his noseless face out.
{: Must watch if you haven't.



Caught this with the girls. Sad sm and wl can't make it. Had yami yogurt with fruity pebbles. I would say this is the first time I find cereals "acceptable". Note, I'm still anti-cereal. Lol.
And this morning I wanted to pick up peanut butter to try! *smack head* what's wrong with me? Btw, I hate peanut butter.

And cereal. : |

Last thing, bth the couple a few miles away. I ain't stalking them or what. Trying to focus on my movie but they keep making those irritating sounds. I know, who didn't make out in a cinema before? But there's like lots of kids around. Kids, children. Xiaoxiaodeleh. 'nuff said. 

Went to Gelare after some work yesterday. Oh not forgetting the porridge sw's mum cooked for us. :D

Chilling there was pretty good except it was pretty stuffy.
Chatted, laughed and htht. Kinda last minute plan but I love it. Went to the benches outside gift a name to continue. It is always nice to talk about random things here and there, about this and that, right?


I guess that was the first time I stayed out so late with love. Hohoooo all the way till the shops in cwp closed.
24 hours of food and random crapping after Alevels, alright?

I also want go holiday~~~ but cannot leh you know? :( Maybe let's be a Singapore tourist okok @liting? :D

He was all she got, all she fought for





I'm so lazy to blog but I want to blog. See the irony?
Nothing much today. Stayed back for econs and self-revision for chem today. Library is good, just a little noisy at times.
Air-con own everything though.


Stayed till 8 something before heading home. Slept in the library for about 25minutes. Cannot take it anymore. Really pei fu those that mug throughout. How is that even possible?!



TEACH ME I WANT LEARN LOL.



Love lessons in N1-4, it's super hot there but I just like the fact we have a fixed room, not shuffling around like Harry Potter. I don't need pre-university training in this area, seriously.



Gonna start GP paragraph now.

Sunday
Headed to tuition first before heading to the library. Met sw, alton and yl there. Left after a while and went to sm's house. Tried some work, stalked people, ate and home. Was in PE that day because something stupid happened, which I'm not going to talk about it anymore.


Monday
School, as per usual. Stayed till 6+. Chem extra lesson and physics subject day.
After which dropped by cwp for a little while.


Tuesday
School, again. lol. Class was officially in N1-4 because of tofu chen. PE was crazy. Ultimate frisbee was good but the sun was plain crazy. Burning, literally. Went for chem thingy after school. Hohooo.


2 sentences each day. How nice.
I'll try to type something nice tomorrow. C:

Hihi, tuition was cancelled today so I went to library. Yeap, LIBRARY. Lol. Spent hours there but can't even finish 1 chapter of chemistry.

Met wei loke for lunch at Mos burger before heading back for chem. Seriously noob in chemistry now. Let's not think about physics yet.

Tomorrow will be so damn packed. Guess I've to sacrifice some things here and there. Life.


Have to finish more work/revision because next Saturday is a day dedicated for dearests. Omg me want eat sushi like seriously.


Came home to cook after sitting on the cold, hard chair. Seriously making my back ache like no body's business. Ran all the way to cwp to get koi from weiloke. KOI YES YUP.


Now gonna shower, have dinner and just wait for mei le jia you. Plus drink my koi. Life is complete like this.


Touching work tomorrow.

At times, scared is no longer the word to describe how I feel






So, went to check up on the dentist I'm going to visit very soon. So freaked out. Imagine your gum threatening to fall off any moment. I'm like tasting blood every now and then. It's a little severe, ya I know.
Gonna get it check soon. Hopefully mum will be able to bring me there.


It's mad insane right? Haizzz.


Speaking of doctors, I haven't been going back to my doctor for a while now. I don't know why I chose to go to the one at boonlay. The last time I went for my last appointment is like a year ago.
Shit. Actually, I'm fine now so I'm thinking whether to change my treatment or not.
Wth I shouldn't have paid first. If only I've the money back. THEN I CAN GO FIX MY GUMS YOU KNOW?

Checked the price. Crazy one. If really severe, have to go for an op. Ha? ye chang meng duo. -______-

*cross fingers everything will be okay*


Heading to bed now (life goes on). Tuition plus revision tomorrow.
So worried to the point that I did zero thing today after I reached home.

Yoyooo. Funny thing of the day: fell asleep in school for an hour.

After which, went to meet litingliting. Chilled at coffee bean. Lol sm and her dumb dumb. Thought we buy the fresh milk for $2.

Heheee plus we super high lol. Seriously crapped like nobody's business.



Met fen Ni after that. Talked. Can't wait for next sat!!
Love love.

I'm thinking of going back to how I blog back in Aug 2010. Nice.


So I need more tumblr photos. Organising my files oh yeah.

Something quite awesome. As of how true it is, I don't really know. Anyhow, I've experienced this lucid dreaming thingy for a couple of times. I thought I bei gui ya wtf. HAHAAAAA SO IGNORANT.


Anyhow, I tried doing it last night and it sorta succeed. Except the fact that I'm toooooooo tired I can't take it any longer so I went to sleep. Maybe you can try tonight.


Took height and weight. So glad I didn't shrink as much as I thought I would. 1cm, ok la not that bad. Lost 0.3kg. Not badz.

Okay, had family dinner today. Such a rare thing. Everyone was dying from hunger. Had only like 2 breads for the whole day.


Time to start work. Been slacking for the past hour.

I've zero thing to blog about today. Everything is so mundane. I'm either at school or at home. Doing homework or sleeping. Maybe you can include showering, eating and TV. Nothing much really. Everyday is a so repetitive.

But well, I can handle this kinda life. I've said before (but not probably here) I'm pretty contented with little change. That is if I ever work as a factory worker I might not get bored so early. Might. Can't confirm until I go through it.


Got something pretty awesome to share but it's so late. Need to sleep.
So, I will blog again tomorrow. This time, earlier. Wait for me.


AND HP OUT TMR HOHOHOOO HAVE TO WAIT TILL NEXT WEEK T______T
Can't believe this is the last part already. Been so long. Noooooooo so after this I don't have a die-die-must-watch movie already. Nothing compared to all the years on Harry Potter. :D

Slept all the way to like 10 the moment I reach home. So this means about 4 hours of nap. I should have stayed back to study or what haahahaa.

This is pretty insane. 4 hours of sleep and I'm sleeping only 1 hour later than usual. Thought I could at least do homework until.. 1/1.30am. But shags guess I'm sleeping now.

That is because I've to wake up at 5 to wash my hair later. Hohooo didn't wash them because I was mad tired I don't so I can't wait to nap, plus I hate to blow dry my hair. So waking up early tmr to wash them.


So tired. *crawls into bed* good night. :)

I wouldn't say the results didn't have an impact on me. It did, for a second. I stopped feeling sad over things pretty quickly nowadays. I guess time is really running up. Both for my studies and for my life?
That's what I feel constantly anyway. So it wouldn't help if I'm down. Why not cheer up and work harder? Hmm yeap that's what I plan to do.



Went to the library to do some work today. Finished only Maths. Daniel was there throughout to accompany the lonely soul~ He was busy playing cow vs alien game on iphone, 60+k high score. Mad man. I played many many many rounds before hitting a mere 14k. Not bad actually. I'm not someone good in games, no matter what type.. Okay maybe I'm pretty good in those detective/mystery solving games... when they make sense. xo


Those are my favourite too.



My photo of the day super cute right?! It is a birthday gift from one of my students. So sweet of her.

Alright, time to finish my econs. Maybe I'll try Physics again if I've time. I have jia hao yue yuan tonight and after which, 1 hour of HP. God I think I'm watching the last part next week or what. Which is pretty sad. Afterall, everyone would be done with it and I'm only catching it like.. next week. I can't remember most of the things so  I'm planning to rewatch them. But... I can never finish rewatching all the potters before Thurs. Impossible. Hope I will be going for a movie marathon with fishball mei (new name yo) this coming Sat, if possible.

Gonna stock up on snacks real soon. C:


Below is a chunk of words and if you spent 1 minute to read, perhaps you'd feel it is true too.
xoxo,

Didn't join the peepos for frisbee T____T Regretting right now. FATS WHY YOU NO LEAVE?



Plan to lose like 1 kg today. Can or not? Wth want to leave a nice number on my report card/health card/whatever.


Okay have to try yup.


So went for tuition after lazing in bed till about noon.
Ate so much omg I'm going to burst. Like seriously, so so so so much. Can add up to everything I plan to consume in a day.
Haven't had dinner at home yet. Which makes me feel... weird. A table full of delicacies. yums. Should I just.. grab something?

Meh no matter what, I've to finish my caramel chocolate today because it is expiring soon. Not going to waste such a good thing. They tasted REALLY good.


Crap I've econs homework to finish. Jiayou!

Such a familiar title. Wanted to change my daily blog to that but decided to keep jielinnnx33. Afterall, everything is this - mostly user names.

Guess I'm sticking to jielinnnx33 for real good. (I know, pretty hard to remember but I'm so used to it)


So decided to rename my tumblr. (FINALLY).

Somehow, I really like this URL. So.. happy yet I've elements of my name inside. I like it, do you?

Since it is a new URL, I changed my ugly skin to something plain... light blue which is super near to white. I love white tumblr pages. It feels so clean and comfortable. What's more to ask?

Added a touch of pink (colour I can't live without yup) so there I've it - classic without losing "me".
Do check it out if you haven't. Click here.


Tumblr is totally a nice place to read. You will learn a lot from there. The way different people feel, the current trends and styles, advices and things you never thought of. Once in a while you will chance by one or two good posts or pictures. It's marvellous.



Do create tumblr if you don't have one. Don't miss out too much.

And 2 more things before I go:
1. Check my tumblr hehehhee.
2. Click my ads >>>>>>>>>>


Good night.

 Updated 1246am

\Blissed-enchanted why you no update?!
So sian you know ever since sw and ape stop blogging, I depend on you for my daily source of entertainment you know you know?
End up playing L4D2 again. So boreddddddd. Yawns. Napped twice. Still have ample time hehehe. Love Saturdays when I don't have tuition. :D


Alright time to revamp my music bank which consists of 68 songs. Ever since I changed to this desktop I've almost nothing but school work, pictures and movies. So different from what I used to have. Time to update my playlist, I am getting sick of the songs repeating over and over again.



I'm super duper hungry right now. Rejected supper. Yes I remember, height and weight on.. tues? I think.
I don't want to shock myself as well. I've enough food today - rice for breakfast (I know), 2 bars of chocolates for lunch, mushroom soup for snacks, sour gummies for entertainment and rice again for dinner. Oh and some caramel chocolate thing from UK. They are so good. And cheap. WHY YOU NOT AVAILABLE IN SG?


Comeon globalisation, bring Sansbury here.


:D


That is how you spell it, right? Heck dont care already head is killing me. The short half an hour L4D is taking effect. I guess too much turning here and there. Lost my way.. Err what's new?


It's almost 1am, got to hurry.

Trying to save some electricity by fanning myself instead of using the fan. Taking up too much energy. I've bedsheets to wash and have to plan lunch for myself. Hungry and all there's left is junk food. Had 2 bars of chocolates but they were nothing when compared to a bowl of fragrant rice, you know?


Had many rounds of L4D2 on my own, got through a few rounds after turning here and there, there and here. Decided to give up because I'm stuck in 1 level for so freaking long. Hate being lost.


Don't feel very well now going to nap a little. (Though I did just now)
Sleeping is my favourite to-do right now.
This weekend is so nice. Please don't end~~~~~~~~~~

Went to school for college day today. Crappy. Don't know how I spent the time but I did.

Grabbed a pudding and headed home to prepare.
Finally a chance to dress up a little.
Went to cwp to meet up with the rest and caught:


















DAMN PAINFUL. 
DAMN GROSS RIGHT GOT LIKE WATERY PUS.


Both left and right legs.
Today is a damn suay day. Wear shoes, feet got blisters, face got rashes(which took me real long to conceal), eyes become bloodshot and strike monthly thingy.


BUTBUTBUT, I'm not going to give up on heels. Wait till my feet recover, I'm going to file the back of my shoes, stick silicon and learn to walk again. Platform heels are real hard.

I hope one day I can walk like Rosie Huntington (the woman that acted in Transformers).
Seriously amazed by how she walks. Nice.


Remember my last period was one of the days in UK. You mean, I'm back from UK for about a month already?



T____T miss that place. So magnificent. 


Had about an hour of L4D with the peepos. :>

Updated 9:22pm
ni hao wo you lai le.


Nap was a little too long, shower as well. That made up my whole afternoon.
Had about 30 mins of L4D with the girls just now. Hahaaa crappy shit. I kept shooting them instead of the zombies. A little nauseous but I guess I'd be okay in no time.



Didn't watch transformers yet. Maybe I will after dinner. Maybe. That is if family is not watching kdrama (which I missed a couple of ep and too lazy to chase liao)


Transformers or jia hao yue yuan?
Skipped ah di as well. Will go xinmsn one of these days.

Sorry for the scary picture I took below LOOL. Didn't realise it was so bad until I saw in on my iphone.


Last thing, added lots of primary school friends; I hope they remember me!
Oh well, can't blame them if they don't.


I don't know why my primary school friends so cool. Like really cool. Feels like a family. Was young but met really awesome people there. Everyone feels so familiar. So good.

OHOHOH GOT NEW YAN JING TANG TANG (EYECANDY) OMG HE TOTALLY WIN KYUHYUN. THAT EXPLAINS A CHANGE OF WALLPAPER.

If I show sw she confirm say ugly, my eyes covered with cow dung. She can't differentiate ang mohs (yes new eyecandy is back to Caucasians yeap) BUT REALLY CUTE.

The whole point is I don't even know who the hell he is.... Just.... saw his picture of twitter and everything just collided. Looool goodbye!







Updated 2:39pm. Hiiii! I'm back!

So tired I'm going to take a nap, wash-up and watch this later!


 Nice I found the disc. Can recap before watching the movie, which is most probably tomorrow!

Can't wait.
Okay maybe my webcam is really pixelated. Lol.



Hi, So I finally wrote what I wanted to out in the previous post. Do check it out if you want.

I can't live in the past y'know? Time to move on.



So, today marks the end of prelim1. Definitely can do much better. Gonna minus all the distractions and plus all the motivation, for both prelim2 and A level. After 11 years of Education, my chance of achieving my life-long goal is finally nearing; yes, make it to University.


That's my parents' wish. Their motivation for slogging so hard for money. They just want the three of us to grow up, to be someone useful in the society, someone happy, someone with morals and character, someone literate and holds a decent-paying job, or even someone successful.

Though going to uni doesn't guarantee that all but at least it is a good start.

It is then I get to live the life I want.



Enough.


Walked home from the bloody main gate with alanyong. Lol. Talked so much I'm like super thirsty when I reached home. Gulped down 1 bottle of soyamilk *yums*


Okay, 1 packet.




Didn't join the peepos for netball because I was feeling sick and the weather is out to kill. So ya, home is a good choice. Fan is working at 100% efficiency, right at my face. Nice or what?


I've blog posts to clear but I think I've done enough talking today. (typing, to be more exact).
Now time for some movies?



Actually, the thing I want to do most is.... STUDY WTH?

This happens to me allllll the time.

Before exams: Do every other thing except studying
After exams: Don't feel like doing anything except revision.


Teenager. Always rebelling? Loool. Do recommend me good movies ya!


Last thing, who wants a new skin? So fun so fun.

I never felt so much in a day before. Yesterday somebody, not sure whether it is an accident or not, jumped. I'm like searching for words to use to write this post. It is hard. Hard to express what I want to say. A mixture of emotions. No, turmoil, a state of blank.


She is not someone I know but I'm super lost and sad at that moment. Well, she fell right next to my house and I have a clear view of everything.


Life, so fragile. 




I did not witness the whole process of... death. I'm thankful I didn't. Couldn't sleep last night and mind was all messed up just by looking at the aftermath. I would certainly go bonkers if I did.
Thank god, literally.


So this was what happened. I napped like 3 times yesterday. So mad tired and I'm aching so badly because of that irritating monthly cycle. Imagine I didn't sleep, I would have heard the bangs, the screams, the commotions. Me being myself, I would definitely check it out.

And that will be the worst choice of my life.
I know, I always watch people killing one another, eating each other blahblahblah on tv but when it comes to real life situations, I don't think I'm fit to handle it.




Thank you all the aches and sores.



Anyhow, I only realised this whole thing when I'm keeping the laundry at 7pm. Was shocked when I see a policeman downstairs with a tent.

Called sm but she didn't pick up. Her phone >.<. I'm so lost, seriously lost. Called mum and only managed to calm down when sister reached home.


A lot of people are.
But I ain't. 



I know, who don't die? In fact, people die every single day for every other reason. But I never thought it'd be so near to me. So near. It's like watching a movie in 3d. Yet, it is not something you can brush off after the whole 'show' ended.




I cannot imagine what I'd do if someone close passed away. I can't. Plain crazy.



I'm not afraid or anything because I've nothing to do with this whole thing.
I'm just affected. Traumatised. Shocked. And perhaps, depressed as well.
I can't help to wonder how her family is going to handle this. Pray everything will be better though words can't change the fact forever.


I hate to say this but this is part and parcel of life.
Now I only hope my family, friends and love ones stay with me, till death do us apart.



From now on, I would want to create more happy memories, for myself and for others. Because in life, you will never know what happen next.


You too,  okay?

I hope you don't too upset alright? You know who you are :>



Didn't join the peepos today. Guess there wasn't a particular reason for it. Anyhow, it wouldn't make a big difference without me anyway. They will enjoy as well ^^


Soooooo. Staying at home isn't that bad at all. Except the fact that the weather is literally killing me and I've to blast fans around the house. Life, otherwise is pretty good at home.

Been snacking a lot because no body cooked today. Am too lazy to go down to pack some food for myself. Wouldn't die without lunch. Had 6 pieces of bread as replacement. Not dying.

OMG I REALLY LIKE THIS SKIN! Spent a lot of time cropping. Sorry for the pixelated photo. Took this in a pretty dimly-lit room with iphone. Yeah. But it isn't that bad, really.


So happy. time for bed. :D

Btw, deleting archives tmr.
Time for a new beginning. Yes?

Two things that got me hooked:
Number 1: Sour chewy candies.

Tell me who don't know this?!
This is like the most awesome candy on Earth, yes no?

But it's like 30 cents per pack right? Plus it's not as sour as I thought it was.
Hmmm.

So today, I went to uncle tidbits with the usuals and gog + zz to get those you manually pack in type.
Had 1, coke flavour and it taste really good! :D


Got allllll the flavours to try. Awesome.

Got this whole pack at only $3.50. There's some dolphin candy yl recommended and wormy candies. Value or not?!!


Here's the random pictures I've collected over the days.

Random photos collected, edited.